the great graph

yep.....came up with a graph after retiring from any forms of math other than simple addition, substraction, multiplication and dividing of no more than 2 integers....*ehem*

the graph above might seem like a simple doodle that involves no calculation or complicated formula, but you are very wrong if you think that way.

this graph is derived based on a very complicated formula with no definite answers!!up till now i am sure nobody can come up with an absolute answer for this...i shall not even dream of trying to answer this question even if i am reincarnated 10 times with all my memories intact!!

this graph is a LEAN and simple representation of my emotional state when i'm with him. yep.....how boring i must be keep harping about one fella over and over and over again...i cant help it i just need to do this cos he's too wonderful a fren ad..ahahahha

as you can clearly observe from the graph, there is no plateau, it is always very high...or very low....you gain and den u loses big!

liking him, i am never bored with feelings.....cos its either i'm up or down...and these ups or down never lasted too long for me to get bored with it :D

he got me smiling and skipping on one day, and send me crying home the next. well, i am really a slave for men.......

i hope, and seriously hoping against hope that this will conclude my journey with him.

i hope i shall have no more post concerning him......

now its time to gather assets!!

The After

i dunno what is it with you

are u trying to kill me by confusing me to death?

u're so cold to me the last week u r here.....u dunno how much i suffered to see u smile at others while acting nonchalantly at me

den suddenly u apologize

tat really makes me feel like fool.

den u are so warm tat i can feel it even if i'm expelled to saturn!

den u're cold.

and then, i died

Song for a fool → Park Sang Woo

English Translation

I must be like this because I’m a fool
It seems alright even when I’m hurt
Even when I’m teased about my pitiful love
Because I’m a fool beyond help

I was good to her because I wanted to be
I was happy with just that
If she smiles just once
I’m happy with that smile

Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return

A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her

Because she was the one I chose
Even the pain made me happy
If she looks back at me just once
I’m happy with that

Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return

A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her

Until someone else to watch over her in my place arrives
I’ll stay by her side for the time being
Because this is a love where I’m just happy to gaze at her
I don’t need anything in return

So that she can lean on me and rest any time
I’ll always appear the same
Even if she leaves me without saying goodbye
I’ll let her go saying thanks

Because I’m a fool

The Move

well, well

i have been contemplating what should i do, and i cant believe you race me to it

you did something i wanted but had no courage to do

now i lose

i hope i can hate u

my best mistake

what we did has cross the line

i dunno what are we anymore

are we just frens?cos we cant be anything else

you'll be leaving, and i dunwanna give u my heart

i need my heart here with me, so i can live, so i can breathe

what we did i do not regret

it was nothing too much, but not too little

i'm still confused, i dont think you do

you make me feel great

yet i know its a mistake

counting the days you'll be gone

its too soon, and i dunno what i'll do

should i stop, and protect myself

or should i let go and hurt myself in the end?

please tell me what to do'

you know i need you

you know it very well

we're just having fun

a fun that will end with a broken heart

and the broken heart will be mine

will you just be another scar?

very emo recently....dunno y...maybe hormonal imbalance....

my boss and colleugue keep saying my company is a really great place to work in but i just dun see it..maybe it wasn't my passion to work in this industry...maybe i feel my life shud not be lived so boringly...i want an exciting life...

thus i decided...i wanna dwell in photography!!!i took great photos (self proclaimed) ehem....

these were not my best shot...but boleh lah

meromictic lake...without the water...hahaha

blue blue sky.....this is where the lake water mixes with salt water

random pic

lifezzzzz

i bravely asked my boss when i can get promoted today..hur-hur....i siao liao..:P

i was blog-stalking again and FML wat am i doin with my life?ppl so young young so pretty so know how to ta-pan at 18, when i'm 18 i look like i just crawled out of garbage every morning with no sense of fashion.....and very far from pan leng leng...

now i'm all old and wrinkly its a bit too late to be leng leng cos no make up can cover my WRINKLES!!!!!

lemme sob myself to sleep tonite

sob sob

lets jump

A wordless post

the beach babes *ehem*

the floating babes *coff coff*

look at skeleton.....doing the pontianak jump LOL

yeay!!!

a wordless post......

jumping is the new obsession...hor

my babies

look at wat my babies will look like with my gorgeous future hubbies

here's me the woman who will impregnant those babies with my gorgeous hubbies
mama= *smooch smooch*

Hubby Nominees

#1 Lord HeeChul
-the one with the most vibrant personality

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this is baby chul-hwa....*kyahhhh aegyo*is this realy my baby?*dreams* i must have done good deeds past life!

and this is chul-hwa when he/she is a little older....(i cant guess my baby's gender LOL)

this is Chul-hwa.....i guess a baby boy?? or girl........

#2 Kim Hyun Joong

-the 4D prince

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Our baby Hyun-hwa

i think its a boy *gasp* tears of joy!!or can be a girl.....hmnnnn....so pretty...expecially those eyes........

i think he looks like hong ki!!

mr cutie hongki-do u see the resemblance??so pretty!

why all my kids look so androgynous??maybe cos their papa is so so pretty!!prettier than girls...fml=_=

nemind..i shall mate with a masculine male #3 Oh Ji Ho
-smoldering sexinesssssss

and here is our boy Kim-ho

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blur blur looking wan hahaha so cute cute cute

and here #4 Angelababy

no i'm not combining both our ovum together....jz curious wat will happen if i taint her perfect face with mine...lets see

Angelababy.....

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me

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see her face is magically fatter...O my fat face....

as u can well see there's no jay chou....well u see we ad have a kid if i post it here paparazi will come hounding us...susah...so discreet...LOL

p/s

*disclaimer all these just for fun but i do hope they came true(jz for the guy hubbies)

Testing

i'm testing my webcam...

i've been posting too frequently lately...

look at me flying hair

i dream of things to be

i had a dream last night and it was so awesome i had to engrave it forever in my blog for all to see!


i dreamt of my GoD-Heechul and the Anchovy Prince-Eunhyuk!!








compared to him...i'm so fugly TT_TT





soo soooo ugly that even Teddy showed his fury little butt at me!he refuse to look at my horrifying face TT_TT

Heechul is perfect0!






Heenim loves cat










i love dogs..








how different could two soulmate destinied to be with each other but deparated by distance be??




i dream that i was at their concert and suddenly Heechul appeared and seems to be bullying Eunhyuk, so he started chasing Eunhyuk around the stage. Both of them were running and playing on the stage during their concert and totally forgotten about singing!!










how natural!!

ranting about my awesomeness

just finished my new blog header! i noe yvonne will be impress(right??kekeke)
i noe i am simply awesome *rolls eyes at self*


so i was thinking of getting my hair history in chronological order..u noe from long to short to long again but i realise i do not have as much selca shots of my hair as i possibly wud like...only some here and there.....and some of these pics must be totally destroyed cos if they are exposed will be an embarrassment to the world!!!


and most of these pictures involves me posing like i'm some cover model....ahahahaha my day and night dream since long ago...if only i had better complexion and am taller.....*currently standing at 161.5cm ahem*coff*yvonne short coff*


cant believe i am actually so much taller than she is kekekeke..but our champion in vertical growth is still miss Phoebe, currently standing tall at 173cm and only weighing a meagre 47kg! talk about tall and lightweight!


but i digress....


so the header story continues....since some of these pic i cant remember when it was took cos i look the same in everyone of them since years ago (yes i am ageless like tat), so in the end i just plonk everything in, not in chronological order, but thru when i manage to find those pic in some forgotten folder nestling somewhere in my computer!


and combined with my limited knowledge of PS...i present to u my new header!!!as u can see it was done half heartedly just campak wat i can find and combine into one banner.....zzZZzz...when only will i learn to put some heart and soul into thing i wanna do......


so the end result is not tat bad right?


again i manage to out-awesome myself...muaaahahaha

rose an jasmine

this is a pot of rose and jasmine tea.

look nice rite ahaha

when we met

guess which is taken 3 years ago and which is taken recently??time is really very cruel, playing on us like that. how i wish time wud stop at a time where the worst thing to cry for is when ur frens ignores u or when u fare poorly in exam.

have we changed??

or remain oh-so-young(not a korean name) ahaha...

lame lame