Daughter of Water

i'm home for less than 24 hours and had fought with my mother, again. i know i am rude, especially when i talk to her, but i just can't help it. that feeling of resentment and anger just explode everytime i talk to her.

she expect me to know everything and have time to do everything. like the income tax form. how am i suppose to know what to do with it?i've never fill any income tax form before in my life so how am i suppose to know?she expect me to know everything because i'm a uni student. i felt so pressured. all my relatives expect me to know everything. its so annoying.

when i ask her to ask my brother, she just change the topic and make it sound like i don't want to help her and that she will ask her frens.....like if my brother doesn't know then it is ok. but if i don't it is because i am selfish and i don't want to lend a hand. do u see the difference of perception here??

i am so angry. so so angry. the way she talks just annoys me. she always make herself sound like a helpless victim and i am the devil in the house. so so tired of this.

she never thought deeply why i seldom came home now. i rather stay alone in the hostel with nothing to do. she just thought i am hiding there because i don't want to help her. No mom, it is much more compicated than that. i remember every single word you said and i find it very hard to not think about all the hurtful things that you said to me.

i came back to study at home. not to have another pointless argument with you. home is the place i felt the most stress.