Daughter of Water

yest, when i was half dozing off....i suddenly thought about how my He used to speak....and it suddenly hit me hard, like a torpedo fired at 200km/h.....that i would never had that chance again....
all i had was a memory of Him...there will never be any present from him ever...and that he is really GONE
no matter how hard i kept telling myself everything is ok...and THAT never happens...but the fact was it did happen and my life had changed no matter how much i detest it and no matter how i fear the fact...
it remains a REALITY that i cannot escape from....a reality i had to accept...

i just dunno when