i read sense and sensibility the second time and i still dislike edward ferrars.....
why do i suddenly picked up an old classic to read??well, i have to admit i am inspired by Twilight. LOL...i know it doesn;t make sense but i do remember that Bella mentioned briefly about there's so many Edwards in classics that i decided to read them again...
about Edward Ferrars, in my opinion he is so uselessly coward and thus do not deserve at all Elinor's love. i cannot begin to explain how much i detest Elinor in her agreeing to accept Edward after he was dumped! like hello??
he did not consider your feelings at all when he was allc"lovey-dovey" with Lucy, right???and u're kinda desperate to just zanely accept him. it just shows she is too desperate, that marianne is getting all the attention from some of the most eligible bachelors and she was...sidetrack...
and after completing Twilght online, i decided that i am still very much addicted to the series and would love hard copies of all my wonderful beloved books.....
christmas present???hint hint
anoter year is coming to an end. this has been a wonderful year. with many wonderful promises that do not really lived up in the end....
i must say goodbyes to so many unfinished conquest...
goodbye to my crush for a boy so young.....
goodbye to all spirits in getting all lovey dovey in campus
i will still held the same resolution as i had made almost every year and i hope am slowly achieving them no matter how slow the process might be
1) getting taller (still crossing my fingers on this)
2)smiling more often
3)more courtesy and friendly
4)more hardworking and serious in my undertakings
5)forgetting the past and embracing the future
6)treat my friends kindly
and i hope the etar shall end well
i shall seize the day, live everyday to the fullest and not waste my life on regrets and ifssssss
Friday, December 19, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
i am so addicted to Twilight! so addicted to Edward! he's like the most charming once-a-human being!!!!!
other than my obsession with anything other than reality(hey u can't blame me, my reality sucks) i have been doing my lab project with no progress at all! its's really getting frustrating because everyone is moving forward and me?i am just stuck there not moving an inch and seriously don't know anything at all. this is bad. i've never felt more blank about my work. i just perform what i am told blindly, and its not good when u turn into a robot...
sigh....
there goes my holiday it seems. i barely rested a day. everyday i'll fly to my lab, hoping that i have progress....but with every little progress i've made, i slip backward a few more steps....i am bloody jinx
other than my obsession with anything other than reality(hey u can't blame me, my reality sucks) i have been doing my lab project with no progress at all! its's really getting frustrating because everyone is moving forward and me?i am just stuck there not moving an inch and seriously don't know anything at all. this is bad. i've never felt more blank about my work. i just perform what i am told blindly, and its not good when u turn into a robot...
sigh....
there goes my holiday it seems. i barely rested a day. everyday i'll fly to my lab, hoping that i have progress....but with every little progress i've made, i slip backward a few more steps....i am bloody jinx
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
foolish Jill story
Jill was having problems on her 1st day at her part time. she promised her friend that she will substitute her for the weekend and that weekend is also Jill's 1st time as a promoter. but she was already having dificulty. the guard refused to let Jill enter, saying there's no authorization and so on. so Jill waited for her supervisor to arrive. as her supervisor was taking quite some time to arrive, Jill decided that she would make the time usefula and walked around.
when she arrive back at the checkpoint, she was greeted by an angry supervisor. beside her was a rather cool looking boy. "oh boy" she thought to herself, this seems to be a beginning of a very bad day. she was allowed to enter soon after. the boy had troubles for he wanted to keep his bag at the counter which the guard doesn't seem very happy about. so Jill enter the premise 1st, and waited for the boy at the entrance.
"are you waiting for me?"asked the boy when he saw Jill standing there. Jill nodded and they both walked together to their counter.
soon, the boy and Jill were freinds. the boy will often visit Jill at her counter. Jill felt happy for her 1st day at work, she had met a new friend. they went for break together with another girl whom they just met and talked for 2 hours. after that they met up more often just to laze around. as their friendship grew, Jill learnt that the boy has very good voice.
he would sing and Jill will be very happy listening to it. his voice was so angelic, so calming and Jill had fallen for his voice. soon after, they lose touch, but Jill saw his msn so she added him, happy knowing she can still keep in touch with the boy with the wonderful voice.
the boy's personanality online shocked Jill because she never thought he would be able to talk like that. they chatted a few times, and by then Jill has had a crush on the boy. she made her happy and she likes him. her fondness for him only grew as the day passed.
Jill went back to school and lose contact with the boy because he was never online anymore
Jill was sad.she still talkes about her cute boy with wonderful voice form time to time.
one day while working part time, she saw her boy again. she was beyond excited. no words can describe her feelings that day. her heart fluttered, endorphines rushed through her veins like the strongest current could have, and she was on cloud nine.
she only saw him, and not the girl beside him. her friend prophesized that she might be his girl because she doesn't look like his sister, which she has seen before.
immediately, like Hiroshima and Nagasaki after the bomp dropped, her heart sank beyond the deepest trench, and shattered into a gazillion of dust. she was immediately shrouded by glooming black sky, with crows and thunder clouds screaming for apocalypse to arrive. her soul felt like it had just been stepped by a giant elephant and kicked by an antelope.
when the boy passed again, Jill's friend teased the boy about his alledge girlfriend. he deny and said it was his sister. Jill was estatic! but still, the boy talked to her friend more then her which mads her sad. but later the boy walked over and asked Jill for her number. Jill was so nervous that her body trembled and her voice shivered while giving him her numbers.
Day in and day out, she dream of the boy calling her, or at least messaging her, but the boy never did. slowly, hope drained out of Jill's spirit.
one day, the boy suddenly called Jill out of the blue. Jill do not have time to react because she don't have the boy's number, but at last, at the most unpredicted moment, he called.
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Jill couldn't stop grinning and laughing the entire time they chatted. she immediately forgets about her incoming exam due the day after. all she could think of was the boy, how sweet, how cute, how charming the boy was.
Jill promised the boy she would visit him at his part time work place. but after that call, the boy did not really keep in touch with Jill, except an odd good night message. this makes Jill kinda pissed because she was already dreaming of the boy and he did not do anything.
but Jill was also to be blamed. Jill too did not do anything to for the boy.
Jill was a conservative person. Jill always believed that the guy should take action. so all she will do is wait. is this wrong??
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a love to fight for is a love worth it!
when she arrive back at the checkpoint, she was greeted by an angry supervisor. beside her was a rather cool looking boy. "oh boy" she thought to herself, this seems to be a beginning of a very bad day. she was allowed to enter soon after. the boy had troubles for he wanted to keep his bag at the counter which the guard doesn't seem very happy about. so Jill enter the premise 1st, and waited for the boy at the entrance.
"are you waiting for me?"asked the boy when he saw Jill standing there. Jill nodded and they both walked together to their counter.
soon, the boy and Jill were freinds. the boy will often visit Jill at her counter. Jill felt happy for her 1st day at work, she had met a new friend. they went for break together with another girl whom they just met and talked for 2 hours. after that they met up more often just to laze around. as their friendship grew, Jill learnt that the boy has very good voice.
he would sing and Jill will be very happy listening to it. his voice was so angelic, so calming and Jill had fallen for his voice. soon after, they lose touch, but Jill saw his msn so she added him, happy knowing she can still keep in touch with the boy with the wonderful voice.
the boy's personanality online shocked Jill because she never thought he would be able to talk like that. they chatted a few times, and by then Jill has had a crush on the boy. she made her happy and she likes him. her fondness for him only grew as the day passed.
Jill went back to school and lose contact with the boy because he was never online anymore
Jill was sad.she still talkes about her cute boy with wonderful voice form time to time.
one day while working part time, she saw her boy again. she was beyond excited. no words can describe her feelings that day. her heart fluttered, endorphines rushed through her veins like the strongest current could have, and she was on cloud nine.
she only saw him, and not the girl beside him. her friend prophesized that she might be his girl because she doesn't look like his sister, which she has seen before.
immediately, like Hiroshima and Nagasaki after the bomp dropped, her heart sank beyond the deepest trench, and shattered into a gazillion of dust. she was immediately shrouded by glooming black sky, with crows and thunder clouds screaming for apocalypse to arrive. her soul felt like it had just been stepped by a giant elephant and kicked by an antelope.
when the boy passed again, Jill's friend teased the boy about his alledge girlfriend. he deny and said it was his sister. Jill was estatic! but still, the boy talked to her friend more then her which mads her sad. but later the boy walked over and asked Jill for her number. Jill was so nervous that her body trembled and her voice shivered while giving him her numbers.
Day in and day out, she dream of the boy calling her, or at least messaging her, but the boy never did. slowly, hope drained out of Jill's spirit.
one day, the boy suddenly called Jill out of the blue. Jill do not have time to react because she don't have the boy's number, but at last, at the most unpredicted moment, he called.
................................................................................................................................
Jill couldn't stop grinning and laughing the entire time they chatted. she immediately forgets about her incoming exam due the day after. all she could think of was the boy, how sweet, how cute, how charming the boy was.
Jill promised the boy she would visit him at his part time work place. but after that call, the boy did not really keep in touch with Jill, except an odd good night message. this makes Jill kinda pissed because she was already dreaming of the boy and he did not do anything.
but Jill was also to be blamed. Jill too did not do anything to for the boy.
Jill was a conservative person. Jill always believed that the guy should take action. so all she will do is wait. is this wrong??
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a love to fight for is a love worth it!
Friday, November 7, 2008
its been awhile since i'm here
today is the 7th of november, the eve of my birthday. nothing spectacular happened, it is like all the other days in my life, empty and uneventful. i really wanna just sleep through my birthday, i really wanna escape the day. its more like i refuse to grow up. the years are adding onto my life and i have not done or achieved anything spectacular.
i'm still the same, lazy and not willing to sacrifice to achieve anything. even in my studies, i'll discount myself and give myself the minimal amount of days for study. what did i do with my extra days??i have no idea. i have led a life without purpose all these while, till the extent that when something does happen i'll be surprised myself.
i'm a person with split personality. one is burried deep inside me, another is the person that's my shell. the person inside me wanted to change, wanted to accomplish and wanted to take risk. the person inside me is crying, is vulnerable and insecure.
but this person is deep inside me, in the middle of a maze with tangling and scattered with broken dreams, shattered hopes and surrounded by a thick smoke of emptiness.
the other me is the mirror of the other me. whatever the imprisoned me wanted to do, it'll try to oppose to it, by giving lame excuses and playing on the insecurities that the imprisoned me felt. usually, the other me won.
every YES that i wanted to say naturally when it reaches my mouth it'll become a NO. every confessions are turned to ignorance. every truthful admiration are turn into frowns that will makes me feel guilty. how many opportunities have i lost because of this??
but i do not blame this other me. she only wanted to protect me, shield me from further pain.
as i'm turning a year older, i wish that i could loosen up, be more accepting and more grateful for all the things that are happening. i'll try to keep my temper and i'll open up a little to the world.
this is a rather sombre pre-birthday post, thus i shall post some happy contradictory pictures!!
pre-birthday celebration at Chillis and a pre-birthday movie Tropic Thunder
i wished i could own the world
Saturday, October 4, 2008
HADYAI
hadyai...
what do i think of hadyai...the whole thailand for tat matter??
1st of all......motorcyclist without helmet...kah kah ka,,dunno why...its kinda a symbol! and yes...i see many motorcyclist without helmet!
a lot of cheap stuff(check)
a lot of transsexuals(check)
a lot of hookers(check)
and a lot more.
i'm super touch by ther patriotism...their love for their king!!his majesty's pics are everywhere and u can see many flags tooo many imported cars...mostly are flashing new summo...so jeles...and many cars has this stickers on..(i love my king)
imagine this on malaysian's car...(i love agong)agong has another meaning in hokkien...LOL
it was very tiring to sit for 4 hours in the van.....after we passed Padang Besar immigartion, we went through Sadao, den Hadyai.
for lunch,
some of the pics of our food tat i manage to take before they get savaged by hungry tourist
what do i think of hadyai...the whole thailand for tat matter??
1st of all......motorcyclist without helmet...kah kah ka,,dunno why...its kinda a symbol! and yes...i see many motorcyclist without helmet!
a lot of cheap stuff(check)
a lot of transsexuals(check)
a lot of hookers(check)
and a lot more.
i'm super touch by ther patriotism...their love for their king!!his majesty's pics are everywhere and u can see many flags tooo many imported cars...mostly are flashing new summo...so jeles...and many cars has this stickers on..(i love my king)
imagine this on malaysian's car...(i love agong)agong has another meaning in hokkien...LOL
it was very tiring to sit for 4 hours in the van.....after we passed Padang Besar immigartion, we went through Sadao, den Hadyai.
for lunch,
thai style
pork leg..the meat is amazingly soft
the pomfret....the aunty told us will prepare small portion and she gave us such a huge fish!
the flesh is smooth!but the gravy a tad spicy
kang kung with sambal...salty!
the thai tomyam....DISAPPOINTMENT!i tot the soup will be clear, with a piercing spiciness and the right amount of sourness and saltiness...mayb wrong shop.
the aunty brought us an extra plate of dish tat we did not order, or we tot we had canceled...the "or chean".....i tot ok la...miscommunication problem, but she did this to the other table as well, she gave them Thai Kerabu...
i think its done intentionally....
cis
Sunday, September 21, 2008
i have a test on tuesday, which will affect my final exam alot cos its 40% and i haven't even seriously started reading yet!
i know coming home is a bad idea, plus nowadays i'm addicted to the games in fb.....how can this be??????
pauline suddenly smsed me the other day, asking if i want a MAN...wt!!!!??????????
tat question was so funny cos it popped out of nowhere and she just suddenly thought of me......*shakes head*
it makes me feel weird for the rest of the day, do i want a man??what if i want a man??if i accepted the man, what will happen??LOL
actually my mind fastforwarded to the day i asked my MAN to give me alowances...LOL LOL....den suddenly i can live with a MAN in my life.....hahahahaha
right now, i am busy with my final year project(ok really just wasting my time) but spending time doing something that turns out to be nothing in the end is pretty exhausting kay! and as scientific research goes, it need a lot of re-search.....a lot of repeating and adjusting before we can get a decent result....
let's see how long the impatient me can stand....
right now my mind is filled with shopping in Hadyai(did i spelled it correctly?) despite the ruckus and chaos a lil north to the place....what if i never came back???
at least i spent my last hours shopping??hahaha...such a bimbotic thought..
no no
my last hour must be spend meaningfully, like i finally solve the question to genome mystery!but then, at that time i would love to live, to see how my great idea is accepted and ppl from across the globe will stare at me in awe..saying
"she's such a genius""good head""amazing insights" and mayb an odd "she's the hottest" wont be that bad...:P
i'll be at the same rank with Einstein muahahaha
i am such a good dreamer that i deserve an award for it!
i know coming home is a bad idea, plus nowadays i'm addicted to the games in fb.....how can this be??????
pauline suddenly smsed me the other day, asking if i want a MAN...wt!!!!??????????
tat question was so funny cos it popped out of nowhere and she just suddenly thought of me......*shakes head*
it makes me feel weird for the rest of the day, do i want a man??what if i want a man??if i accepted the man, what will happen??LOL
actually my mind fastforwarded to the day i asked my MAN to give me alowances...LOL LOL....den suddenly i can live with a MAN in my life.....hahahahaha
right now, i am busy with my final year project(ok really just wasting my time) but spending time doing something that turns out to be nothing in the end is pretty exhausting kay! and as scientific research goes, it need a lot of re-search.....a lot of repeating and adjusting before we can get a decent result....
let's see how long the impatient me can stand....
right now my mind is filled with shopping in Hadyai(did i spelled it correctly?) despite the ruckus and chaos a lil north to the place....what if i never came back???
at least i spent my last hours shopping??hahaha...such a bimbotic thought..
no no
my last hour must be spend meaningfully, like i finally solve the question to genome mystery!but then, at that time i would love to live, to see how my great idea is accepted and ppl from across the globe will stare at me in awe..saying
"she's such a genius""good head""amazing insights" and mayb an odd "she's the hottest" wont be that bad...:P
i'll be at the same rank with Einstein muahahaha
i am such a good dreamer that i deserve an award for it!
Saturday, September 6, 2008
i've been sitting alone, outside trying to connect to my uni's wifi and its been an uphill battle.it cannot afford a 10 minutes decent connection without disconnecting
someone commented i'll look better if my nose brigde is higher. i couldn't agree more!i have this chinese nose with almost non-exixtent nose brigde....which makes any photo looks ugly. my nose is just protruding hill....
i want rhinoplasty!!
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this is a pointless post....see how uninteresting my life is. nothing worth mentioning here....sigh
someone commented i'll look better if my nose brigde is higher. i couldn't agree more!i have this chinese nose with almost non-exixtent nose brigde....which makes any photo looks ugly. my nose is just protruding hill....
i want rhinoplasty!!
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this is a pointless post....see how uninteresting my life is. nothing worth mentioning here....sigh
Thursday, August 21, 2008
i admit when it comes to money....it matters a lot to me
for me, if no money kenot be happy. now i'm not saying that money is everything, it is not and kenot be everything
but at least it can makes me happier than having no money at all
so i always thought i would put money first before love....how foolish i am. mayb i have been out of love for the longest time, and have conveniently forgotten how loving someone can be, but recently something makes my heart beats again(altho this cannot be considered to be love), i realise, i will throw away everything(not clothes unless u perverted monkeys are thinking along that line) just to cuddle with him....
ah
the feeling of being in love
how fresh, how intoxicating it is
p/s: i'm not in love in case u're wondering
for me, if no money kenot be happy. now i'm not saying that money is everything, it is not and kenot be everything
but at least it can makes me happier than having no money at all
"money is not everything,
but without it you can do nothing"
so i always thought i would put money first before love....how foolish i am. mayb i have been out of love for the longest time, and have conveniently forgotten how loving someone can be, but recently something makes my heart beats again(altho this cannot be considered to be love), i realise, i will throw away everything(not clothes unless u perverted monkeys are thinking along that line) just to cuddle with him....
ah
the feeling of being in love
how fresh, how intoxicating it is
p/s: i'm not in love in case u're wondering
Monday, August 18, 2008
my final year project has started!
my senior expect me to be in the lab all the time with him, looking at plates after plates of bacteria, making medium and streaking more plates.......its so tiresome!
not to mention boring!
i dunno how much longer i can stand cooping in the lab the whole day doing abosolutely nothing but staring into empty plates...its really driving me insane...i need outdor activities!i need fresh air!i need to see green trees!!!!!!
i had two kebabs, one for luch and another for dinner.it was soooOooooo good!totally mouth watering!and not to mention i was down with a sore throat and felt a bit feverish the day i decided to had this calorie oily food...but totally worth it
my uni convocation just ended....that was it...3 full years(for some, mayb 4)...all ended....the day u receive that scroll, will u regret that u haven't done enough?wish u'll get better grades?or thought that ur uni life was the best time of ur life??
i certainly hope what i am doing now will not resulted in a deep regret in my future..i must try to get better grades, i certainly dunwan to be disappointed on when i get my result.
so what if ur result is just a piece of paper and may have to use in ur future undertakings??
self satisfaction matters most!i will be utmostly satisfied if i have good grades that i can remember....good frens that i will miss and good time for the good memory....
i have wasted 2 good years of my uni doing absolutely nothing marvellous that will be a nostalgic memory for me.....i have another year to go and i certainy hope it'll be better....
wat should i do after i graduated??i have no idea
who will come see me when i graduated?will i receive any pretty flowers or cute teddy bears from frens or relatives??
or will i be alone??
what i do now will proably has an effect on my future
i always tell myself to change but nothing much has been done....
my senior expect me to be in the lab all the time with him, looking at plates after plates of bacteria, making medium and streaking more plates.......its so tiresome!
not to mention boring!
i dunno how much longer i can stand cooping in the lab the whole day doing abosolutely nothing but staring into empty plates...its really driving me insane...i need outdor activities!i need fresh air!i need to see green trees!!!!!!
i had two kebabs, one for luch and another for dinner.it was soooOooooo good!totally mouth watering!and not to mention i was down with a sore throat and felt a bit feverish the day i decided to had this calorie oily food...but totally worth it
my uni convocation just ended....that was it...3 full years(for some, mayb 4)...all ended....the day u receive that scroll, will u regret that u haven't done enough?wish u'll get better grades?or thought that ur uni life was the best time of ur life??
i certainly hope what i am doing now will not resulted in a deep regret in my future..i must try to get better grades, i certainly dunwan to be disappointed on when i get my result.
so what if ur result is just a piece of paper and may have to use in ur future undertakings??
self satisfaction matters most!i will be utmostly satisfied if i have good grades that i can remember....good frens that i will miss and good time for the good memory....
i have wasted 2 good years of my uni doing absolutely nothing marvellous that will be a nostalgic memory for me.....i have another year to go and i certainy hope it'll be better....
wat should i do after i graduated??i have no idea
who will come see me when i graduated?will i receive any pretty flowers or cute teddy bears from frens or relatives??
or will i be alone??
what i do now will proably has an effect on my future
i always tell myself to change but nothing much has been done....
Thursday, August 7, 2008
what do u do when a fren turn into the most irratating person on earth and u just can't live peacefully with her around and yet u can't really shake her off cos in truth she did help u a lot and u are thankful, but there's always a limit to everything...
she is being rejected by so many people that u felt paiseh to be seen with her........
i dunno lar
i'm such an evil mean bitch
she is being rejected by so many people that u felt paiseh to be seen with her........
i dunno lar
i'm such an evil mean bitch
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
o my darling
o my darling
o my darling cute JUSTIN
rosy lips and super long legs
o my darling cute JUSTIN!
when i saw you, across the room,
i can't get my eyes off you
at last you noticed
and make the effort
to come by my side
but you were so slow
and were so shy
makes me wanna, scream and die
but in the end, you
had the courage
to come and talk to me
so i'm happieeee
so so happieeee
i get to know you, cute JUSTIN
but i'm furious, and not so happy
when i didn't get your number
and it seems like
very seems like
u were probably attached
cos a cute guy, just like you
wont ever
be mine............................
p/s; sing to the tune of clementine
o my darling
o my darling cute JUSTIN
rosy lips and super long legs
o my darling cute JUSTIN!
when i saw you, across the room,
i can't get my eyes off you
at last you noticed
and make the effort
to come by my side
but you were so slow
and were so shy
makes me wanna, scream and die
but in the end, you
had the courage
to come and talk to me
so i'm happieeee
so so happieeee
i get to know you, cute JUSTIN
but i'm furious, and not so happy
when i didn't get your number
and it seems like
very seems like
u were probably attached
cos a cute guy, just like you
wont ever
be mine............................
p/s; sing to the tune of clementine
Sunday, June 15, 2008
i had a back massage!!!!
its at Danai Spa in G Hotel....and of cos i din pay for it lar...poor ppl like me can only depends on voucher!!!!
i had the Detoxifying Back massage which is more like the Intoxicating back massage cos my back was pretty achy after the massage.....................
the masseur saw my naked body..sob sob........rugi deeeee............................
the ambience...well its only so so.....my fren's room....well he has always been lucky all his life....contains a bath tub and a personalized shower room....mine just a dim room with nothing.....................so..........
the massage itself was....OKay lar.....no bones broken.
the first few minutes was pretty tensed...i was fighting the urge to laugh because she was massaging my body and its kinda ticklish.....i must say...a desire well fought.....!!!
after that went to eat noodles...at some restaurant...the noodle was great!it has to be lar...since we drive all the way to penang just to eat it...price is pretty reasonable too....!!and its super large amount.totally worth the amount of money!!
i have to force myself into finishing that gigantula bowl!but the noodles was nice!!and you can pick the shape and type of noodle you want!i pick the triangle noodle because of the reccomendation of the waiter....me and my fren was having a hard time deciding so he suggested triangle noodle and i agreed..anything out of the ordinary will do for me:P
and the noodle is not exacly triangle lar...its still noodle like...long...just that its not ur typical rounded or flat noodles....its triangle!can u imagine what i said??very hard to describe lar
and i found out a rather shocking news...my nerdy-geeky coursemates goes clubbing..frequently.............i am damn beh syok with this lor.....i havent been near a club for years.............
ok moving on
story when i'm in the mood to tell
LOL
neeway i'm sick!
its at Danai Spa in G Hotel....and of cos i din pay for it lar...poor ppl like me can only depends on voucher!!!!
i had the Detoxifying Back massage which is more like the Intoxicating back massage cos my back was pretty achy after the massage.....................
the masseur saw my naked body..sob sob........rugi deeeee............................
the ambience...well its only so so.....my fren's room....well he has always been lucky all his life....contains a bath tub and a personalized shower room....mine just a dim room with nothing.....................so..........
the massage itself was....OKay lar.....no bones broken.
the first few minutes was pretty tensed...i was fighting the urge to laugh because she was massaging my body and its kinda ticklish.....i must say...a desire well fought.....!!!
after that went to eat noodles...at some restaurant...the noodle was great!it has to be lar...since we drive all the way to penang just to eat it...price is pretty reasonable too....!!and its super large amount.totally worth the amount of money!!
i have to force myself into finishing that gigantula bowl!but the noodles was nice!!and you can pick the shape and type of noodle you want!i pick the triangle noodle because of the reccomendation of the waiter....me and my fren was having a hard time deciding so he suggested triangle noodle and i agreed..anything out of the ordinary will do for me:P
and the noodle is not exacly triangle lar...its still noodle like...long...just that its not ur typical rounded or flat noodles....its triangle!can u imagine what i said??very hard to describe lar
and i found out a rather shocking news...my nerdy-geeky coursemates goes clubbing..frequently.............i am damn beh syok with this lor.....i havent been near a club for years.............
ok moving on
story when i'm in the mood to tell
LOL
neeway i'm sick!
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
what my fren said today shock me....
the reason is this
i used to have a crush on my coursemate sometime ago, which i myself has forgotten when..............but during the period when i like him so much, i always look/stare/gaze at him.............and this looking cum staring is quite obvious because i often sit in front and he waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back behind.
so mayb, perhaps....ok who am i kidding, his fren knew about this because i make it so obvious....and that is the most embarassing period in my uni life............but after one month or so, i got over him and look for greener pasteur...
so this year, i found out he has a gf.i know his gf..........and he is attached during my foolish crush period on him........
i tot oh well, i am not popular, my presence is invisible.....so no one will notice
but they do...............................
i so low profile ler...........
malu............
my secret is half exposed
the reason is this
i used to have a crush on my coursemate sometime ago, which i myself has forgotten when..............but during the period when i like him so much, i always look/stare/gaze at him.............and this looking cum staring is quite obvious because i often sit in front and he waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back behind.
so mayb, perhaps....ok who am i kidding, his fren knew about this because i make it so obvious....and that is the most embarassing period in my uni life............but after one month or so, i got over him and look for greener pasteur...
so this year, i found out he has a gf.i know his gf..........and he is attached during my foolish crush period on him........
i tot oh well, i am not popular, my presence is invisible.....so no one will notice
but they do...............................
i so low profile ler...........
malu............
my secret is half exposed
Thursday, June 5, 2008
i received news about the petrol hike at 7.30p.m. and drive to the nearest petrol station, which is like 5 minutes drive away from my house. its less than 1 km....mayb around 500m?and its the longest 500m....i spent almost 50 minutes just to get my petrol pump and another 50 minutes to leave the petrol station.
scene at petrol station
many were annoyed and pissed including yours truly.i'm hungry, thirsty and hot in the car. the exit and entrance were block by cars coming in to get their oil.two way street turn into one. ppl were using their horn like nobody's business.
scene at petrol station
many were annoyed and pissed including yours truly.i'm hungry, thirsty and hot in the car. the exit and entrance were block by cars coming in to get their oil.two way street turn into one. ppl were using their horn like nobody's business.
but there's is a good side to every disaster. ppl started to show their concern side. like the many good samaritans who brave the rain to guide the cars, the good uncle and malay lady who came out of their car to warn the auntie not to go any further or she'll am into my car....i was just siting in the car staring at the auntie's UNSER as she inch closer.....carzy woman...
it was an experience....
and it was a horny, steamy night.
the air was hot,
my vision was clouded,
the smell of oil and fumes
intoxicating my nose
cars were kissing,
everyone was out
venging their frustration
we all share the same passion
man and woman
strangers in the beginning
both sharing the same goal
trying to reach the same destiny
with anger and desperation
woman and man honking away
the cool droplets from above
only added to frustration inside
steamy and hot
that was the night
Monday, June 2, 2008
Scorpio Love Horoscope
Scorpios are very passionate, sexy and loyal in love. Capricorn is the best match for Scorpio while Aries is the worst. They can exercise a great deal of control over their emotions but when it comes to love and hate, it’s extremes for them, either they love intensely or hate intensely.
p/s; my first love is Aries.......sob sob..my heart still aches when i think of him
When a Scorpio zodiac sign folk spots a person he/she is attracted to, the first impression is the one that always lingers. Scorpio can easily sense dishonesty and at times this may not be comfortable for the partner. Scorpios are strong-willed and possessive of their partners. They can be exceedingly seductive and look at sex as a competitive game. They have a very strong libido that’s legendary(LOL HAHAHAHAHA). Variety is important in love-making.
Scorpio Aries Love Horoscope Matching
Aries tends to be casual about relationships which is something that possessive Scorpio just can’t stand. Cancer, Pisces, Virgo are also good matches.
Scorpio Pisces Romantic Bonds
Scorpio and Pisces are both intuitive and highly emotional signs and these traits will help them get along well. They will be strongly attracted towards each other. Pisces will lend a sympathetic ear to Scorpio which will be like soothing balm to Scorpio who generally faces a lot of pain and inner conflict. Scorpio is a highly sexual being whereas Pisces is more gentle and romantic, yet this is one area where the opposites will truly attract.
Scorpio Cancer Zodiac Match
Cancer and Scorpio will have an intense bond and will cling to each other. They will enjoy sporting activities together. They will have a psychic bond between them helping them understand the other’s feelings. They can arouse each other at the drop of a hat and sex will be explosive. Possessiveness could become a problem in this relationship.
Scorpio Capricorn Match
Capricorn and Scorpio share the traits of being ambitious and serious about handling responsibilities which helps them complement each other. When they work together, they can achieve great financial success. They have a good chemistry. It will be a fun relationship full of froth and liveliness. Both share unusual interests and will frequent discuss artistic, religious and psychological topics.
Scorpio Virgo Romance
Scorpio and Virgo will share the same intensity of emotion and the urge to analyze each other. Romance between the two will be the stuff that legends are made of. The sexual compatibility will be good too. They understand the changing moods of each other and bring out the fun, joy and laughter in life. This will be a lasting relationship if they don’t fall into the pitfall of taking each other for granted.
Scorpios if handled the right way can be wonderful partners though a trifle too possessive.
its no coincidence that most of my close besties are from these few zodiac signs!!!!!!!!!!!!
believe it or not!
p/s; my first love is Aries.......sob sob..my heart still aches when i think of him
When a Scorpio zodiac sign folk spots a person he/she is attracted to, the first impression is the one that always lingers. Scorpio can easily sense dishonesty and at times this may not be comfortable for the partner. Scorpios are strong-willed and possessive of their partners. They can be exceedingly seductive and look at sex as a competitive game. They have a very strong libido that’s legendary(LOL HAHAHAHAHA). Variety is important in love-making.
Scorpio Aries Love Horoscope Matching
Aries tends to be casual about relationships which is something that possessive Scorpio just can’t stand. Cancer, Pisces, Virgo are also good matches.
Scorpio Pisces Romantic Bonds
Scorpio and Pisces are both intuitive and highly emotional signs and these traits will help them get along well. They will be strongly attracted towards each other. Pisces will lend a sympathetic ear to Scorpio which will be like soothing balm to Scorpio who generally faces a lot of pain and inner conflict. Scorpio is a highly sexual being whereas Pisces is more gentle and romantic, yet this is one area where the opposites will truly attract.
Scorpio Cancer Zodiac Match
Cancer and Scorpio will have an intense bond and will cling to each other. They will enjoy sporting activities together. They will have a psychic bond between them helping them understand the other’s feelings. They can arouse each other at the drop of a hat and sex will be explosive. Possessiveness could become a problem in this relationship.
Scorpio Capricorn Match
Capricorn and Scorpio share the traits of being ambitious and serious about handling responsibilities which helps them complement each other. When they work together, they can achieve great financial success. They have a good chemistry. It will be a fun relationship full of froth and liveliness. Both share unusual interests and will frequent discuss artistic, religious and psychological topics.
Scorpio Virgo Romance
Scorpio and Virgo will share the same intensity of emotion and the urge to analyze each other. Romance between the two will be the stuff that legends are made of. The sexual compatibility will be good too. They understand the changing moods of each other and bring out the fun, joy and laughter in life. This will be a lasting relationship if they don’t fall into the pitfall of taking each other for granted.
Scorpios if handled the right way can be wonderful partners though a trifle too possessive.
its no coincidence that most of my close besties are from these few zodiac signs!!!!!!!!!!!!
believe it or not!
hardcore scorpio!
Friday, May 23, 2008
today went to Winter Warmers in Sunway Carnival with my frens.................
we start off with appetisers.salad..(no pic)
let's go backward... introducing dessert 1st!!!! the dessert!
mango egg pudding..........
next week i have to take an off day from my practical.....felt so guilty about it........but i termade a promise already so have to go....................................................
i actually got complained about my gloomy looks and depressing aura....................the lab staff actually asked another lab staff y i look so gloomy....she asked if i have any problem because i look like i have lots of them................sigh........and i tot i am cheery enough.......
the despatch uncle comment tat "jamie is a city girl while TAY(my fren) is a kampung girl...i dunno y he comment like tat...altho its funny but obviously i am the KAMPONG GIRL.....
we start off with appetisers.salad..(no pic)
let's go backward... introducing dessert 1st!!!! the dessert!
mango egg pudding..........
somehow i felt fat eating this...
den lets move on to my drink!!!
my chocolate mint coffee....
no complaint but shud have ask for tea....
my chicken spagetti........its delicious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm going to work during weekends for two consecutive weeks in tesco, pg island. i know i am absolutely crazy....but i'm broke!
next week i have to take an off day from my practical.....felt so guilty about it........but i termade a promise already so have to go....................................................
i actually got complained about my gloomy looks and depressing aura....................the lab staff actually asked another lab staff y i look so gloomy....she asked if i have any problem because i look like i have lots of them................sigh........and i tot i am cheery enough.......
the despatch uncle comment tat "jamie is a city girl while TAY(my fren) is a kampung girl...i dunno y he comment like tat...altho its funny but obviously i am the KAMPONG GIRL.....
Saturday, May 17, 2008
warning-whiner post ahead
i know this is old story but i just can't help it!
why am i so poor?????
i was talking to my frens yest and realise they are very loaded and still worry about money. they find part time to work on top of the allowance they get. and i realise i'm really a very lazy person. i don't even bother to look for part time jobs and dream about money falling from sky.and all i do everyday is blame everyone around me for the living conditions i'm being put through. i've missed out a lot of opportunity because i chose to mop around other than take action. i don't put effort into anything but hope for a tripplefold reward. i took life too easily.
i'm 22 already and what skills do i have??
i don't know how to cook a proper meal, i can't bake, i am bad in housework, i don't have any valid working experience, my results in sch is not very good either and my interpersonal skills are in the drain....i suck in everything i do yet thinks i'm good in everything.
i've not been living.
for the past 22 years i've not live one day. and life has been patient for me. life has been kind to me. and all i do is complain and whine all day and night. but what did i ever do for my life?i don't appreciate my life enough. i'm not thankful for my life. life is always unlocking new doors for me. but it is i who refuse to open it. and i still blame life.
why am i so poor?????
i was talking to my frens yest and realise they are very loaded and still worry about money. they find part time to work on top of the allowance they get. and i realise i'm really a very lazy person. i don't even bother to look for part time jobs and dream about money falling from sky.and all i do everyday is blame everyone around me for the living conditions i'm being put through. i've missed out a lot of opportunity because i chose to mop around other than take action. i don't put effort into anything but hope for a tripplefold reward. i took life too easily.
i'm 22 already and what skills do i have??
i don't know how to cook a proper meal, i can't bake, i am bad in housework, i don't have any valid working experience, my results in sch is not very good either and my interpersonal skills are in the drain....i suck in everything i do yet thinks i'm good in everything.
i've not been living.
for the past 22 years i've not live one day. and life has been patient for me. life has been kind to me. and all i do is complain and whine all day and night. but what did i ever do for my life?i don't appreciate my life enough. i'm not thankful for my life. life is always unlocking new doors for me. but it is i who refuse to open it. and i still blame life.
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the hosp staff kept asking about my family condition. to be honest this is one questin i hate dthe most in my entire life. mayb its the way i look and behave, most ppl would think tat i'm a spoilt, airheaded rich kid. but i am not.mayb i am spoilt and sometimes ask the stupidest questions, but tat's it. no money for this kid. and i am spoilt in a diff kinda way. i am spoilt because i rebel too much and now i rebel to everything.
Friday, May 9, 2008
what's up yo???
i've been doing my practical in the patology department for a full 5 days now and well, its not as bad as i thought it would be......
Though, i still can't tolerate the fact that i have to wake up before 7 every morning, drive for more than half an hour to seberang jaya, braving the early morning traffic to go work for FREE.the part i hated most is the F.R.E.E part...at least pay my petrol fees or give us free lunches lar!
the first day, i was sent to the BlOOd BaNk.....what can i say???a lot of blood lar....they tested for the blood group and Rhesus factor here....and there's actually more sub blood group...and blood transfusion is more complicated than i thought. but i spent most of the time there talking and joking with my fellow collegues.....they don't really let us do anything because every step determines someone's else's life...cannot play play....
second day i migrate to HaEmatoLogy LAb....well, its quite fun there...blood from the wards or from outpatients will be sent here to be tested for their clotting factor or to have full blood count etc.....so i dealt with a lot of blood....but the job is easy cos most of them comes readily in test tubes...we just need to label, key in the data and run the test using machines!i was so excited at one time when i saw a BIOHAZARD label on the form...it means the blood should be handled with care because there is infective particles in the blood....such as bacteria or viruses...and i saw they labeled RETROVIRUS...and HIV belongs to RETROVIRUS!!!!
so i'm like W.O.W...i'm actually dealing with HIV contaminated blood, which is kinda cool...hahaha...i admit this is a very twisted kinda cool....
i even tested urine.....i never expected urine to come in so many colours...muahahaha...there's clear transparent, yellow, light yellow, dark yellow, bloody yellow, orange, brown, bloody brown...and much more....wakakaka.....
and the stench....phew...can die man....so teruk some of the smell is so strong!!!!!and imagine some just freshly peed into the bottle....and i have to touch the bottle with the warmness of the urine inside.................'
VOMIT
VOMIT
VOMIT
and some even have stools aka SHIT....have to test the shit lor....but just once lar.....really disgusting teruk!!!!!!!!!!!i'm worried about the other departments where stools will always be sent there for testing......i'll be going there and i'll die there
so far...
i'm tired once i reach home and felt sleepy by 8p.m....
next time work d no life lor..........so robotic....
i've been doing my practical in the patology department for a full 5 days now and well, its not as bad as i thought it would be......
Though, i still can't tolerate the fact that i have to wake up before 7 every morning, drive for more than half an hour to seberang jaya, braving the early morning traffic to go work for FREE.the part i hated most is the F.R.E.E part...at least pay my petrol fees or give us free lunches lar!
the first day, i was sent to the BlOOd BaNk.....what can i say???a lot of blood lar....they tested for the blood group and Rhesus factor here....and there's actually more sub blood group...and blood transfusion is more complicated than i thought. but i spent most of the time there talking and joking with my fellow collegues.....they don't really let us do anything because every step determines someone's else's life...cannot play play....
second day i migrate to HaEmatoLogy LAb....well, its quite fun there...blood from the wards or from outpatients will be sent here to be tested for their clotting factor or to have full blood count etc.....so i dealt with a lot of blood....but the job is easy cos most of them comes readily in test tubes...we just need to label, key in the data and run the test using machines!i was so excited at one time when i saw a BIOHAZARD label on the form...it means the blood should be handled with care because there is infective particles in the blood....such as bacteria or viruses...and i saw they labeled RETROVIRUS...and HIV belongs to RETROVIRUS!!!!
so i'm like W.O.W...i'm actually dealing with HIV contaminated blood, which is kinda cool...hahaha...i admit this is a very twisted kinda cool....
i even tested urine.....i never expected urine to come in so many colours...muahahaha...there's clear transparent, yellow, light yellow, dark yellow, bloody yellow, orange, brown, bloody brown...and much more....wakakaka.....
and the stench....phew...can die man....so teruk some of the smell is so strong!!!!!and imagine some just freshly peed into the bottle....and i have to touch the bottle with the warmness of the urine inside.................'
VOMIT
VOMIT
VOMIT
and some even have stools aka SHIT....have to test the shit lor....but just once lar.....really disgusting teruk!!!!!!!!!!!i'm worried about the other departments where stools will always be sent there for testing......i'll be going there and i'll die there
so far...
i'm tired once i reach home and felt sleepy by 8p.m....
next time work d no life lor..........so robotic....
Sunday, May 4, 2008
D0G
i have a small dog tat suddenly appear in my house. according to my mom, its my neighbour's dog tat she doesn't want anymore because she has some problem with her fur.....so my mom took her in and take care of her till she grew to become a super active and adorable little doggie....
she loves to jump around, and teases the old dog. and this is a dog that can climb well...i mean really well....she can climb into my house's fence, which is about my waist level...and she is something of my knee's height!
so she grew, and grew into this cute doggie....and that's when the problem started. the neighbor who gave the dog to us frequently find my dog...this causes my dog to scream in excitement........which disturbs the other neighbours...ofcourse that neighbour with the thick face claimed back my dog....so my mom return the dog to tat neighbour....
under her care, the dog now has ugly fur with skin problem....and has become ugly......
den one day, she came back...a few days ago actually, first she tried our back door....she just sleeps there but i did not feel like opening the door for her...well she is somebody's else dog now...then, she started to climb into my house!!!!!i was pretty puzzled by how she came in, and at last i saw her in action....she is a spider dog!
threw her out a few times, lock her outside ad shoo her away as we could, but she somehow managed to climb back in.....
i felt sorry for her....she totally loves our house(or was it my fat old dog) and all we did was chase her out..........so whn she saw us, she kinda hid....still in our house....
so right now i have totally no idea what to do with her....my brother has lost all the affection for her after she chewed his expensive shoes, my mother is never one with any feelings of attachment to little animals........
so what shall i do...??
just let her be and see how will she be treated.
she loves to jump around, and teases the old dog. and this is a dog that can climb well...i mean really well....she can climb into my house's fence, which is about my waist level...and she is something of my knee's height!
so she grew, and grew into this cute doggie....and that's when the problem started. the neighbor who gave the dog to us frequently find my dog...this causes my dog to scream in excitement........which disturbs the other neighbours...ofcourse that neighbour with the thick face claimed back my dog....so my mom return the dog to tat neighbour....
under her care, the dog now has ugly fur with skin problem....and has become ugly......
den one day, she came back...a few days ago actually, first she tried our back door....she just sleeps there but i did not feel like opening the door for her...well she is somebody's else dog now...then, she started to climb into my house!!!!!i was pretty puzzled by how she came in, and at last i saw her in action....she is a spider dog!
threw her out a few times, lock her outside ad shoo her away as we could, but she somehow managed to climb back in.....
i felt sorry for her....she totally loves our house(or was it my fat old dog) and all we did was chase her out..........so whn she saw us, she kinda hid....still in our house....
so right now i have totally no idea what to do with her....my brother has lost all the affection for her after she chewed his expensive shoes, my mother is never one with any feelings of attachment to little animals........
so what shall i do...??
just let her be and see how will she be treated.
Monday, April 28, 2008
28 things MOST girls don know bout guys
--guys hate sluts even thoughthey have sex with them!(oh yeah..you're not "popular" ifyou've slept with more than 6guys..you're a HOE)
--Guys may be flirting around all daybut before they go to sleep, theyalways think about the girl they trulycare about.
--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
--Guys will do anything just to getyou to notice him
--Guys hate it when you talk aboutyour ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.
--Boyfriends need to be reassuredoften that they're still loved.
--Don't talk about your guy friends toyour boyfriend.
--Guys get jealous easily.
--Guys are more emotional than they'dlike people to think.
--Giving a guy a hanging messagelike "You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind.." would makehim jump to a conclusion that is farfrom what you are thinking. And he'llassume he did something wrong andhe'll obsess about it trying to figureit out.
--Guys are good flatterers whencourting but they usually stammer whenthey talk to a girl they really like.--A usual act that proves that the guylikes you is when he teases you.
--Guys love you more than you lovethem if they are serious in yourrelationships.
--Guys think WAY too much. One smallthing a girl does, even if she doesn'tnotice it can make the guy think aboutit for hours, trying to figure outwhat it meant.
--Guys seek for advice from girls notother guys. Because most guys thinkalike, so if one guy's confused, thenwe're all confused.
--When a guy asks you to leave himalone, he's just actuallysaying, "Please come and listen to me."
--If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him. It doesn't happen thatoften, so when it does, you knowsomething's up.--If your best guy friend seems toavoid you or is never around whenyou're with your boyfriend, he'sprobably jealous and likes you.
--When a guy tells you that you arebeautiful, don't say you aren't. Itmakes them want to stop telling youbecause they don't want you todisagree with them.
--When a guy looks at you for longerthan a second, he's definitelythinking something.
--Guys don't like girls who punchharder than they do.
--A guy has more problems than you cansee with your naked eyes.
--Don't be a snob. Guys can beintimidated and give up easily.
--Guys talk about girls more thangirls talk about guys.
--Guys hate rejection, but they hatebeing led on even more.
--If you are going to reject a guy,just do it. Don't say they are like abrother or just good friends, it justhurts even more. Tell them that youaren't interested in a relationshipand they will respect you.
--Guys really think that girls arestrange and have unpredictabledecisions and are MAD confusing butsomehow are drawn even more to them.
--When a guy sacrifices his sleep andhealth just to be with you, he reallylikes you and wants to be with you asmuch as possible.
--Guys may be flirting around all daybut before they go to sleep, theyalways think about the girl they trulycare about.
--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
--Guys will do anything just to getyou to notice him
--Guys hate it when you talk aboutyour ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.
--Boyfriends need to be reassuredoften that they're still loved.
--Don't talk about your guy friends toyour boyfriend.
--Guys get jealous easily.
--Guys are more emotional than they'dlike people to think.
--Giving a guy a hanging messagelike "You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind.." would makehim jump to a conclusion that is farfrom what you are thinking. And he'llassume he did something wrong andhe'll obsess about it trying to figureit out.
--Guys are good flatterers whencourting but they usually stammer whenthey talk to a girl they really like.--A usual act that proves that the guylikes you is when he teases you.
--Guys love you more than you lovethem if they are serious in yourrelationships.
--Guys think WAY too much. One smallthing a girl does, even if she doesn'tnotice it can make the guy think aboutit for hours, trying to figure outwhat it meant.
--Guys seek for advice from girls notother guys. Because most guys thinkalike, so if one guy's confused, thenwe're all confused.
--When a guy asks you to leave himalone, he's just actuallysaying, "Please come and listen to me."
--If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him. It doesn't happen thatoften, so when it does, you knowsomething's up.--If your best guy friend seems toavoid you or is never around whenyou're with your boyfriend, he'sprobably jealous and likes you.
--When a guy tells you that you arebeautiful, don't say you aren't. Itmakes them want to stop telling youbecause they don't want you todisagree with them.
--When a guy looks at you for longerthan a second, he's definitelythinking something.
--Guys don't like girls who punchharder than they do.
--A guy has more problems than you cansee with your naked eyes.
--Don't be a snob. Guys can beintimidated and give up easily.
--Guys talk about girls more thangirls talk about guys.
--Guys hate rejection, but they hatebeing led on even more.
--If you are going to reject a guy,just do it. Don't say they are like abrother or just good friends, it justhurts even more. Tell them that youaren't interested in a relationshipand they will respect you.
--Guys really think that girls arestrange and have unpredictabledecisions and are MAD confusing butsomehow are drawn even more to them.
--When a guy sacrifices his sleep andhealth just to be with you, he reallylikes you and wants to be with you asmuch as possible.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
u know what i most beh syok about?younger ppl being more successful...especially those ppl whom u tot must be older cos they have so much more and den the awful truth hit u....they r younger!!!!!very not fair!!anyway i like nira she's totally hot...sigh...wish jie jie could grow like tat too...muahahahaha....
but wat you wanted but did not grow last time would not grow now either....but the what u don't grow last time would prob grow now....scarily fast summo....
i was looking through my pic and i am a real ugly kid last time....so ugly tat most adults would hate me...i have total proof for tat...
there's this auntie(i remember she kinda fat wan lo) and she fetches me to and fro kindie when i was 6 years old...ya i only have one year of kindergarden and am awfully glad of it!!!!kids nowadays are being enrolled into nursery at such young age!!!my niece went into a nursery-come-kindie at age 3....still scary for me cos she was so young and she has to study!
kids are suppose to be worriless and have fun all the time, being showered with love and care and shud be free to explore their surroundings and learn things by experience...not stuck into a classroom lor....how many more years they have to recite theri ABCs....last time A is apple...now A is aeroplane!!!!
Aeroplane leh....last time i think i dunno how to spell aeroplane lor.....mayb until like standard 3??no idea also....
ok back to the fat auntie who fetch me to kindie....she positively hates me....i am sure even in my super young mind i can feel her hatred brewing for me...i think its because i was an ugly, dark kid tat looks like ur neighbourhood bangla...plus i was pretty naughty....and i dun listen to people.a young rebel i must be...but i remembered her scolding me lar.....like everytime got prob go wrong i would be the one got scolding. in her old car, she put a tiny bench at the back seat...so we small kindie kids can sit like 2 rows at the back seat. half on the bench and half on the car cushion. i always sat on the cushion.so u can imagine what happen when it rained....the shoes of the kids who sat on the bench would be muddy and we sitting on the cushion would be dirty with muds.and the car no aircon. hot, stuffy with like mayb 5 to 8 girls behind!!!!jia lat.
the auntie dun like me to sit up on the bench.she said because i dunno how to sit properly on the bench and alwasy make the bench fell from its place. and all the other girls will also point their fingers at me cos auntie always scold me...its so easy to be the target for everything. i was too young to realise anything or get angry.
damn i was just plain stupid.
and i truly believes this is because i look ugly.
but wat you wanted but did not grow last time would not grow now either....but the what u don't grow last time would prob grow now....scarily fast summo....
i was looking through my pic and i am a real ugly kid last time....so ugly tat most adults would hate me...i have total proof for tat...
there's this auntie(i remember she kinda fat wan lo) and she fetches me to and fro kindie when i was 6 years old...ya i only have one year of kindergarden and am awfully glad of it!!!!kids nowadays are being enrolled into nursery at such young age!!!my niece went into a nursery-come-kindie at age 3....still scary for me cos she was so young and she has to study!
kids are suppose to be worriless and have fun all the time, being showered with love and care and shud be free to explore their surroundings and learn things by experience...not stuck into a classroom lor....how many more years they have to recite theri ABCs....last time A is apple...now A is aeroplane!!!!
Aeroplane leh....last time i think i dunno how to spell aeroplane lor.....mayb until like standard 3??no idea also....
ok back to the fat auntie who fetch me to kindie....she positively hates me....i am sure even in my super young mind i can feel her hatred brewing for me...i think its because i was an ugly, dark kid tat looks like ur neighbourhood bangla...plus i was pretty naughty....and i dun listen to people.a young rebel i must be...but i remembered her scolding me lar.....like everytime got prob go wrong i would be the one got scolding. in her old car, she put a tiny bench at the back seat...so we small kindie kids can sit like 2 rows at the back seat. half on the bench and half on the car cushion. i always sat on the cushion.so u can imagine what happen when it rained....the shoes of the kids who sat on the bench would be muddy and we sitting on the cushion would be dirty with muds.and the car no aircon. hot, stuffy with like mayb 5 to 8 girls behind!!!!jia lat.
the auntie dun like me to sit up on the bench.she said because i dunno how to sit properly on the bench and alwasy make the bench fell from its place. and all the other girls will also point their fingers at me cos auntie always scold me...its so easy to be the target for everything. i was too young to realise anything or get angry.
damn i was just plain stupid.
and i truly believes this is because i look ugly.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
holidays r wat i wanted and waited for evry time the sem starts...it'll be free of work and lotsa time to just relax....but somehow i'm so stressed now.....stressed cos nth to do !everyone, well most tat i'm closed to are either studying for their exam o having exam.....
no fun like tat...
i'm bored till i fell sick....woke up today with awfully painful face!
last sunday i went out with this fren of mine...he mmg teruk kept smoking n front of me and he drinks beer like water.but felt quite bad cos i refuse to drink...i shud just down a cup just to give face??but altho i really just took a few sips now and then, when i reach home my face were positively pinkish!imagine what will happen if i really drink!!!but i wanna try....hahaha.....i'll drink the whole bottle the next time and see what happens to me...
will i puke all over?or will i do silly things tat drunk ppl alwasy seems to do when they're drunk...i wanna know my drunkard personality..muahahaha....i mmg sungguh boliao!
....and i embarassed myself in karaoke...i totally can't sing!!!no voice!!!so mensiasuikan...i suck....i can't sing...i can't!u noe i felt totally ok when i dunno chinese but the only time i felt so left out when i dunno chinese is when k-ing....i wished i could just sing to the subtitles too u noe....tat's be fun....not like now, only know how to sing jay's song through memorizing...so no fun lor
i watched ah long pte.ltd ad....wanted to buy it yest when i went to pasar malam...but u ne what the vendor told me?the cd hasn't arrived...still in printing...mayb about 8p.m....haha...1st time heard this kinda stuff....still in printing!!
bought uncle bob chicken and kuey kak...oh i like....super SEDAP!!!long time no eat!
watched forbidden kingdom...not bad lor....but i dun see a point what is an ang moh kid doing in the movie...and the JADE EMPORER and SUN WU KONG speaks good english!!!!hahaha..jet li look stupid when he grinned....and the warlord uses metallic eye shadow...muahahaha
watched Over My Dead Body featuring my fave hot gurl Eva Longoria.....she's so cute and totally gorgeous...again....tat stupid guy..say he is grieving??/right after seeing a hot gurl he practically forget his vowed to live a solitary life....its not tat he shud live solitary life...but not so fast go fell for another lor...its not rite...must slow slow...
ok....seeing the post above, i realize i'm damn conservative, kampung style girl....and my face is so ugly nowadays....my hair is like can tie d....and my hair is not even 1 month old yet!!!can tie d....ish....my hair mmg grow too fast..like some alien hair of some sort...
no fun like tat...
i'm bored till i fell sick....woke up today with awfully painful face!
last sunday i went out with this fren of mine...he mmg teruk kept smoking n front of me and he drinks beer like water.but felt quite bad cos i refuse to drink...i shud just down a cup just to give face??but altho i really just took a few sips now and then, when i reach home my face were positively pinkish!imagine what will happen if i really drink!!!but i wanna try....hahaha.....i'll drink the whole bottle the next time and see what happens to me...
will i puke all over?or will i do silly things tat drunk ppl alwasy seems to do when they're drunk...i wanna know my drunkard personality..muahahaha....i mmg sungguh boliao!
....and i embarassed myself in karaoke...i totally can't sing!!!no voice!!!so mensiasuikan...i suck....i can't sing...i can't!u noe i felt totally ok when i dunno chinese but the only time i felt so left out when i dunno chinese is when k-ing....i wished i could just sing to the subtitles too u noe....tat's be fun....not like now, only know how to sing jay's song through memorizing...so no fun lor
i watched ah long pte.ltd ad....wanted to buy it yest when i went to pasar malam...but u ne what the vendor told me?the cd hasn't arrived...still in printing...mayb about 8p.m....haha...1st time heard this kinda stuff....still in printing!!
bought uncle bob chicken and kuey kak...oh i like....super SEDAP!!!long time no eat!
watched forbidden kingdom...not bad lor....but i dun see a point what is an ang moh kid doing in the movie...and the JADE EMPORER and SUN WU KONG speaks good english!!!!hahaha..jet li look stupid when he grinned....and the warlord uses metallic eye shadow...muahahaha
watched Over My Dead Body featuring my fave hot gurl Eva Longoria.....she's so cute and totally gorgeous...again....tat stupid guy..say he is grieving??/right after seeing a hot gurl he practically forget his vowed to live a solitary life....its not tat he shud live solitary life...but not so fast go fell for another lor...its not rite...must slow slow...
ok....seeing the post above, i realize i'm damn conservative, kampung style girl....and my face is so ugly nowadays....my hair is like can tie d....and my hair is not even 1 month old yet!!!can tie d....ish....my hair mmg grow too fast..like some alien hair of some sort...
Friday, April 11, 2008
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
pics here!!!
ok
maybe ot here here...since i still can't figured out how to post pics...(can't be bothered pun)....but here's some nonsensical pics of me....
going back to uni to study study....
how i :love: me life
p/s:phoebe, post more lar...very sien wan u noe when nothing to read!
maybe ot here here...since i still can't figured out how to post pics...(can't be bothered pun)....but here's some nonsensical pics of me....
going back to uni to study study....
how i :love: me life
p/s:phoebe, post more lar...very sien wan u noe when nothing to read!
Saturday, March 29, 2008
i'm home for less than 24 hours and had fought with my mother, again. i know i am rude, especially when i talk to her, but i just can't help it. that feeling of resentment and anger just explode everytime i talk to her.
she expect me to know everything and have time to do everything. like the income tax form. how am i suppose to know what to do with it?i've never fill any income tax form before in my life so how am i suppose to know?she expect me to know everything because i'm a uni student. i felt so pressured. all my relatives expect me to know everything. its so annoying.
when i ask her to ask my brother, she just change the topic and make it sound like i don't want to help her and that she will ask her frens.....like if my brother doesn't know then it is ok. but if i don't it is because i am selfish and i don't want to lend a hand. do u see the difference of perception here??
i am so angry. so so angry. the way she talks just annoys me. she always make herself sound like a helpless victim and i am the devil in the house. so so tired of this.
she never thought deeply why i seldom came home now. i rather stay alone in the hostel with nothing to do. she just thought i am hiding there because i don't want to help her. No mom, it is much more compicated than that. i remember every single word you said and i find it very hard to not think about all the hurtful things that you said to me.
i came back to study at home. not to have another pointless argument with you. home is the place i felt the most stress.
she expect me to know everything and have time to do everything. like the income tax form. how am i suppose to know what to do with it?i've never fill any income tax form before in my life so how am i suppose to know?she expect me to know everything because i'm a uni student. i felt so pressured. all my relatives expect me to know everything. its so annoying.
when i ask her to ask my brother, she just change the topic and make it sound like i don't want to help her and that she will ask her frens.....like if my brother doesn't know then it is ok. but if i don't it is because i am selfish and i don't want to lend a hand. do u see the difference of perception here??
i am so angry. so so angry. the way she talks just annoys me. she always make herself sound like a helpless victim and i am the devil in the house. so so tired of this.
she never thought deeply why i seldom came home now. i rather stay alone in the hostel with nothing to do. she just thought i am hiding there because i don't want to help her. No mom, it is much more compicated than that. i remember every single word you said and i find it very hard to not think about all the hurtful things that you said to me.
i came back to study at home. not to have another pointless argument with you. home is the place i felt the most stress.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
guess what times is it. its almost 7a.m....
well well before u start thinking what am i doing here waking up so early and it isn't me, u're wrong. i did not slept the entire night. i took a nap at about 6p.m and woke up shortly before 9p.m. and i have difficulty initiating sleep after that. so what can a girl do when she can't sleep?
i sent a couple of messages....if u receive sms at odd hours, u know what i'm doing:P
i am so hungry and am so tired as well. in an hour's time i have french class and at 10.10a.m i have a mock interview.....hopefully i dun doze off.
man, i am s hungry. my stomach has been screaming for a few hours now but i refuse to eat. its mid morning k.....so its unhealthy to eat. but my stomach acid is puncturing my guts...ouch!
wow, can hear the birds chirping....i think i can see sun rising from the horizon....
my journal, my lab book, is a mess....it is much more complicated than i thought....sigh......so have no idea how to do it
but i really wanna finish them before thursday, so i can go home earlier, rest throughly for a couple of days before studying. i kenot get bad grades this sem....i just can't
well well before u start thinking what am i doing here waking up so early and it isn't me, u're wrong. i did not slept the entire night. i took a nap at about 6p.m and woke up shortly before 9p.m. and i have difficulty initiating sleep after that. so what can a girl do when she can't sleep?
i sent a couple of messages....if u receive sms at odd hours, u know what i'm doing:P
i am so hungry and am so tired as well. in an hour's time i have french class and at 10.10a.m i have a mock interview.....hopefully i dun doze off.
man, i am s hungry. my stomach has been screaming for a few hours now but i refuse to eat. its mid morning k.....so its unhealthy to eat. but my stomach acid is puncturing my guts...ouch!
wow, can hear the birds chirping....i think i can see sun rising from the horizon....
my journal, my lab book, is a mess....it is much more complicated than i thought....sigh......so have no idea how to do it
but i really wanna finish them before thursday, so i can go home earlier, rest throughly for a couple of days before studying. i kenot get bad grades this sem....i just can't
Friday, March 14, 2008
i've been feeling weird recently. my fren is now being friendly with a guy from my class. and i'm not really sharing her happiness.....mayb i am jealous?i sincerely felt tat she totally deserve a better guy than tat guy who is currently pursuing her.
well, its non of my business. wahtever makes her happy is good enuf.
tomoro i will be having another dinner.going for a makeover session before tat......
tat's all i guess....a post for a rainy day
well, its non of my business. wahtever makes her happy is good enuf.
tomoro i will be having another dinner.going for a makeover session before tat......
tat's all i guess....a post for a rainy day
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Sunday, March 2, 2008
seems like being a bitch is the way to go nowadays......but being a bitch comes with a price......and not everyone can be a bitch....
yesterday went out with my aunts.about tea time at 3p.m....as usual when they ordered food, i dunno y they would just randomly ordered a few plates of everything...they wont count who wanna eat or wat's not....they would just order.....and in my heart i was thinking...."i'll be forced to finish all teh food again" and i was right!
they called
char kuey teow x2,
laksa x2,
ais kacang x2,
jawa mee x2,
chai kuey x10
rojak x1
and another "ying liao"...........there were only 6 person.....and i noe my old aunts wont eat so much...the most they would eat is like 2 spoonfuls.....
so i ended up eating charkuey teow x1, jawa mee x1, chai kuey x1, a bit of rojak and a bit of the "ying liao"
and tat is a lot dee....
later in the evening, at about 7.30p.m went out with ah wei and charmaine to chow down some more pasembur....sheesh....
going back to uni today....
going to the kung fu dinner on saturady night
den will be going for the world beach clean up day on sunday....cleaning up beach......i've been wanting to do tat for some time...hahaa....i noe i'm weird..."mulia" as some says...muahahaha
i bought a "formal" shirt on friday in less than 20 minutes...tat was fast!i really just grab, tried, and paid....altho i dun really like it...but desperate times call for desperate measures......
den today hopefully can get some shoes before going back to uni....i have test on tuesday and i haven't studied for it!
yesterday went out with my aunts.about tea time at 3p.m....as usual when they ordered food, i dunno y they would just randomly ordered a few plates of everything...they wont count who wanna eat or wat's not....they would just order.....and in my heart i was thinking...."i'll be forced to finish all teh food again" and i was right!
they called
char kuey teow x2,
laksa x2,
ais kacang x2,
jawa mee x2,
chai kuey x10
rojak x1
and another "ying liao"...........there were only 6 person.....and i noe my old aunts wont eat so much...the most they would eat is like 2 spoonfuls.....
so i ended up eating charkuey teow x1, jawa mee x1, chai kuey x1, a bit of rojak and a bit of the "ying liao"
and tat is a lot dee....
later in the evening, at about 7.30p.m went out with ah wei and charmaine to chow down some more pasembur....sheesh....
going back to uni today....
going to the kung fu dinner on saturady night
den will be going for the world beach clean up day on sunday....cleaning up beach......i've been wanting to do tat for some time...hahaa....i noe i'm weird..."mulia" as some says...muahahaha
i bought a "formal" shirt on friday in less than 20 minutes...tat was fast!i really just grab, tried, and paid....altho i dun really like it...but desperate times call for desperate measures......
den today hopefully can get some shoes before going back to uni....i have test on tuesday and i haven't studied for it!
Saturday, March 1, 2008
my stupid X crush...i was having this realy amusing conversation with him.....mayb it was the distance between us, both emotionally, physically and status...wel he is having a hell of a good time in CA while i have to toil in some local public uni.....
he sounded disappointed when i told him i am not currently seeing/interested in anyone.....and ask me to go all out and be a bitch to get their attention....
will post our conversation here later...
he is pissing me off
he sounded disappointed when i told him i am not currently seeing/interested in anyone.....and ask me to go all out and be a bitch to get their attention....
will post our conversation here later...
he is pissing me off
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
i went back to tai ji training, after almost a month's break. i've been wanting to go back training earlier, but due to some mishaps, it had to be postponed....so yeah....hopefully i can finish learning all the taiji-kungfu fan steps before my senior graduate!seriously, he is the only one i could really trust!
neeway, on another topic, i had a super uber weird dream last night. the most prominent has been my messaging thru sms/msn(it was really the combination of both, cos i remember typing on a keyboard but it was sms-like) with my XXXX crush.....it was so long since i had any contact with him, and all of a sudden i dream of him!so magic lor!!!
and we chatted very decently, cordial and friendly!i was on cloud nine!but it was really weird lar....like he said he couldn't reply cos he can't get through the line, and he suddenly can message because there's a cut on his lips that has allowed a "hole" in the line, so we are able to talk....hahahaha...
i was so happieeee
and woke up with a neck ache....i really wanna know how i slept last night.
neeway, on another topic, i had a super uber weird dream last night. the most prominent has been my messaging thru sms/msn(it was really the combination of both, cos i remember typing on a keyboard but it was sms-like) with my XXXX crush.....it was so long since i had any contact with him, and all of a sudden i dream of him!so magic lor!!!
and we chatted very decently, cordial and friendly!i was on cloud nine!but it was really weird lar....like he said he couldn't reply cos he can't get through the line, and he suddenly can message because there's a cut on his lips that has allowed a "hole" in the line, so we are able to talk....hahahaha...
i was so happieeee
and woke up with a neck ache....i really wanna know how i slept last night.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
2 more days to go and chinese new year will be officially over!
i came back to uni on monday evening...and has since been encountering a string of "sueiness" ....i think i "fan tai sui" lar...
let see...my sueiness starts early...on tuesday morning....8.a.m to be precise...as usual i was taking a ride on the bus...and as i was about to descend from the bus, i FELL.....tumbling down gloriously to the tar road beneath!ok not to say tumbled lar...i dunno how i exactly fell, but i noe it was when i was beginning to take the step down from the 3rd steps....i practically kneeled on the road.....den as i tried to get up, i realised my stupid *^&^$^%^&5 shoe is broken...that cheap shoe...never to believe in cheap things anymore...if they are too cheap to be true...den it is too cheap too be good also!
and so i skimp to the bus stop....my toes are so hurting i just dunno what to do or feel...all that i am feeling is excruciating pain from my toes, it was so painful but i couln't cry....i just sat there hugging my knees and hope that the pain will go away....
called marie...my saviour and asked her to bring me shoes...thanks!
after consoling my painful toe, i decided to limp up the next bus and sat bravely in pain to the clinic....the bus did not stop at the nearest bus stop, it stop like a distance away so i have to limp to the clinic....
although the clinic appears empty, the number i got was 42!and the doctor that was suppose to attend to me has only reach the number 20...a loooong wait i guess....suei lar....
at last it was my turn, after like 200 years.....it was still a mystery to me because only about 5 person went in before me and it took almost 2 hours!
so i skimp to see the doctor...i think i dun look too painful, that my facial expression fail to show the degree of the pain i'm feeling, and that i was talking in such a not-so-painful way, and that there are no trembling, quiver or tears on my cheek because the doctor dun seem to take my pain that seriously!ofcourse i insisted that it was painful, i proved it to her by limping more on my way out, and told her i hurt my bone. plus, the physical injury wasn't that serious, only a peeled skin on 2 or three places, so it looked like i was exaggerating my conditions.
hearing the seriousness of my toe condition, she suggested that i could take a X-ray scan to see if any bone was broken. i was a little happy...because that is exactly what i wanted her to say, i fear i will be crippled for life...she said it was for safety measures, in case there were broken bones, and since there are no prominent swelling on my toes, the worse case is i hurt my tendon or something.so i waited for like almost an hour before i can get my scan and the result...my feet is beautiful...i coudn't recognise my feeet!it does not look like feet bones, it look more like hand or even wing!!!muahaha....long long tiny toe bones i have...
after the x-ray, i went to see her and she just gave me painkillers....she was thinking of giving me shots, lucky she changed her mind!but just painkillers?????as i type my toe is still hurting
and i got my wounds washed and smeared with medicin and i limp all the way to the cafe near my hostel to buy my food. and continue the rest of the day lying in bed.
that's day 1 suei
den the next day, i discover i lost my student card!!!!!double suei ler......i tried to remain calm when i couldn't find it in my bag, i tried to calm my nerve when i couln't find it in my room....i told myself, it must have dropped somewhere along the track that i walk yesterday, so with my still painful toe, i back-trackked my route and found zero signs of my student card.....
y i would worry so much for a student card???cos it was also my bankcard....!!!!i really resign to fate dee....and plan to just apply for a new one which will cost me RM60....broke broke
saw marie and she suggest i make a report at the jabatan keselamatan....went on the next day, which is thursday, which also coincides with Valentine day.....i think Cupid or St.Valentine is my fairy god mother, cos after i made that report, the guard went to check the missing things list that has been found and brought there, and there it was!MY BELOVED CARD!
was so happy!feeling jubilant!triumphant!!!!!!!!!!!!!so so lucky!!!!!!!!!!so my card and me were like destinied to be with each other....although separated, we are united again!!!!!muahaha
so i shall end this post with a happy ending!
lovers dun find each other, they meet!
kiss kiss
i came back to uni on monday evening...and has since been encountering a string of "sueiness" ....i think i "fan tai sui" lar...
let see...my sueiness starts early...on tuesday morning....8.a.m to be precise...as usual i was taking a ride on the bus...and as i was about to descend from the bus, i FELL.....tumbling down gloriously to the tar road beneath!ok not to say tumbled lar...i dunno how i exactly fell, but i noe it was when i was beginning to take the step down from the 3rd steps....i practically kneeled on the road.....den as i tried to get up, i realised my stupid *^&^$^%^&5 shoe is broken...that cheap shoe...never to believe in cheap things anymore...if they are too cheap to be true...den it is too cheap too be good also!
and so i skimp to the bus stop....my toes are so hurting i just dunno what to do or feel...all that i am feeling is excruciating pain from my toes, it was so painful but i couln't cry....i just sat there hugging my knees and hope that the pain will go away....
called marie...my saviour and asked her to bring me shoes...thanks!
after consoling my painful toe, i decided to limp up the next bus and sat bravely in pain to the clinic....the bus did not stop at the nearest bus stop, it stop like a distance away so i have to limp to the clinic....
although the clinic appears empty, the number i got was 42!and the doctor that was suppose to attend to me has only reach the number 20...a loooong wait i guess....suei lar....
at last it was my turn, after like 200 years.....it was still a mystery to me because only about 5 person went in before me and it took almost 2 hours!
so i skimp to see the doctor...i think i dun look too painful, that my facial expression fail to show the degree of the pain i'm feeling, and that i was talking in such a not-so-painful way, and that there are no trembling, quiver or tears on my cheek because the doctor dun seem to take my pain that seriously!ofcourse i insisted that it was painful, i proved it to her by limping more on my way out, and told her i hurt my bone. plus, the physical injury wasn't that serious, only a peeled skin on 2 or three places, so it looked like i was exaggerating my conditions.
hearing the seriousness of my toe condition, she suggested that i could take a X-ray scan to see if any bone was broken. i was a little happy...because that is exactly what i wanted her to say, i fear i will be crippled for life...she said it was for safety measures, in case there were broken bones, and since there are no prominent swelling on my toes, the worse case is i hurt my tendon or something.so i waited for like almost an hour before i can get my scan and the result...my feet is beautiful...i coudn't recognise my feeet!it does not look like feet bones, it look more like hand or even wing!!!muahaha....long long tiny toe bones i have...
after the x-ray, i went to see her and she just gave me painkillers....she was thinking of giving me shots, lucky she changed her mind!but just painkillers?????as i type my toe is still hurting
and i got my wounds washed and smeared with medicin and i limp all the way to the cafe near my hostel to buy my food. and continue the rest of the day lying in bed.
that's day 1 suei
den the next day, i discover i lost my student card!!!!!double suei ler......i tried to remain calm when i couldn't find it in my bag, i tried to calm my nerve when i couln't find it in my room....i told myself, it must have dropped somewhere along the track that i walk yesterday, so with my still painful toe, i back-trackked my route and found zero signs of my student card.....
y i would worry so much for a student card???cos it was also my bankcard....!!!!i really resign to fate dee....and plan to just apply for a new one which will cost me RM60....broke broke
saw marie and she suggest i make a report at the jabatan keselamatan....went on the next day, which is thursday, which also coincides with Valentine day.....i think Cupid or St.Valentine is my fairy god mother, cos after i made that report, the guard went to check the missing things list that has been found and brought there, and there it was!MY BELOVED CARD!
was so happy!feeling jubilant!triumphant!!!!!!!!!!!!!so so lucky!!!!!!!!!!so my card and me were like destinied to be with each other....although separated, we are united again!!!!!muahaha
so i shall end this post with a happy ending!
lovers dun find each other, they meet!
kiss kiss
Monday, February 11, 2008
i thought i can go to bed early yeat (0130), but as went and laid on my bed i heard my mom received a phone call from that brat...he was in an accident....
he crashed into a STATIONARY waja..........idiot &^&**^%$#!!@#$^^&&^%$%&**^%OMGFFFIOSADHJAGFJAGDJDJA
u kenot imagine how angry i was last night. he thought he is the only one using the car issit?he is so accident prone.....and he have to drive like some crazy b******d on the road.and wat my mom said after seeing him....
"at least u r ok"
that;s it!no scolding or repremanding....just tat....
den when only wanna scold him?when he is not ok anymore????he will never learn k.....never.......argggghhggghhh
Y I HAVE THIS KINDA WOMAN IN THE HOUSE??
she scold me for the very very minor things........and when her son does something like tat..its totally ok.............................
##@!#$^&*^$@%%&^%$%)%%
he crashed into a STATIONARY waja..........idiot &^&**^%$#!!@#$^^&&^%$%&**^%OMGFFFIOSADHJAGFJAGDJDJA
u kenot imagine how angry i was last night. he thought he is the only one using the car issit?he is so accident prone.....and he have to drive like some crazy b******d on the road.and wat my mom said after seeing him....
"at least u r ok"
that;s it!no scolding or repremanding....just tat....
den when only wanna scold him?when he is not ok anymore????he will never learn k.....never.......argggghhggghhh
Y I HAVE THIS KINDA WOMAN IN THE HOUSE??
she scold me for the very very minor things........and when her son does something like tat..its totally ok.............................
##@!#$^&*^$@%%&^%$%)%%
Sunday, February 10, 2008
my kung fu night pix...
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its been an OK new year.....altho the hong bao is getting less and less, no thanks to my family reluctancy to visit some of our dear relatives....and me being busy with class......
its the usual steamboat......with even less ppl this year.....and very frugal dishes....if u just let my mom do stuff i wont be surprised if she just feed us water next year....
watched kung fu dunk...........seriously i do love love love and love JaY...but i like him more when he is singing...i just kenot stand his acting...its not bad lar...but mayb cos he is an IDOL.....he start to make stupid movie with storyline centered around him...its getting annoying....
initial D and Secret is good....
din get to watch anotehr chow's movie...CJ7........think have to wait till i go back to uni dee....wait for my Stephen....he looked so old d......pls get MARRIED!!!i;m sounding like his mother!
new year has been going out and hanging out with frens most of teh time....take today for example.....play cards whole day......got win and got lose......but i think i lost more money than winning.....
gotta know lim wei's cute brother....haha ling zhi...phoebe, just give him ur pic...i think he's damn proud got one jie jie so pretty..hehehe
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its been an OK new year.....altho the hong bao is getting less and less, no thanks to my family reluctancy to visit some of our dear relatives....and me being busy with class......
its the usual steamboat......with even less ppl this year.....and very frugal dishes....if u just let my mom do stuff i wont be surprised if she just feed us water next year....
watched kung fu dunk...........seriously i do love love love and love JaY...but i like him more when he is singing...i just kenot stand his acting...its not bad lar...but mayb cos he is an IDOL.....he start to make stupid movie with storyline centered around him...its getting annoying....
initial D and Secret is good....
din get to watch anotehr chow's movie...CJ7........think have to wait till i go back to uni dee....wait for my Stephen....he looked so old d......pls get MARRIED!!!i;m sounding like his mother!
new year has been going out and hanging out with frens most of teh time....take today for example.....play cards whole day......got win and got lose......but i think i lost more money than winning.....
gotta know lim wei's cute brother....haha ling zhi...phoebe, just give him ur pic...i think he's damn proud got one jie jie so pretty..hehehe
Friday, February 8, 2008
haih haih
happy chinese new year!!!!lets all live a ratty life this year:P
i can't believe i did this!i actually went as ar as messaging and adding some ppl i saw for two days when they came to my uni for a debate competition......
I MESSAGED SOMEONE I DON"T KNOW!!!
it's almost stalking...but its far worse than stalking cos when u stalk someone u like its different...this one....i tak tau lah how to cakap....
my brain mmg seciput only.....
actually, lookin at the overall picture, i'm just an "over friendly stranger"......but dunno y i am overcome with this strong sense of embarassement......macam super malu......ki siao malu....
neeway.....chinese new year break is almost over now...left a few more days nia...must shake my leg secukupnya....
anyone know how to ward off evil spirits and orang minyak???do let me know...i'm super terrified of it!!!
happy chinese new year!!!!lets all live a ratty life this year:P
i can't believe i did this!i actually went as ar as messaging and adding some ppl i saw for two days when they came to my uni for a debate competition......
I MESSAGED SOMEONE I DON"T KNOW!!!
it's almost stalking...but its far worse than stalking cos when u stalk someone u like its different...this one....i tak tau lah how to cakap....
my brain mmg seciput only.....
actually, lookin at the overall picture, i'm just an "over friendly stranger"......but dunno y i am overcome with this strong sense of embarassement......macam super malu......ki siao malu....
neeway.....chinese new year break is almost over now...left a few more days nia...must shake my leg secukupnya....
anyone know how to ward off evil spirits and orang minyak???do let me know...i'm super terrified of it!!!
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you.....................
i am not eager to celebrate any new year or any occasion for tat matter...for me...any occasion has become meaningless..it wont be the same...it will never be.how can it be?
when i think of steamboat and chinese new year decorations.....its something that my Dad loved to do most......without him where is the meaning in celebrating a new year?
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you.....................
i am not eager to celebrate any new year or any occasion for tat matter...for me...any occasion has become meaningless..it wont be the same...it will never be.how can it be?
when i think of steamboat and chinese new year decorations.....its something that my Dad loved to do most......without him where is the meaning in celebrating a new year?
Sunday, January 20, 2008
the months of practise and sweatings have finally ended.....the performance is over and i can't help but feel this sudden emptiness.....no more practise of the 24 short yang style???altho i've grown to detest it for something that had been done repeatedly for so long sure bear some kind of boreDOOM in it...but i will definitely missed it....!!!!
now i shall concentrate on my Tai Ji Kung Fu Fan...hopefully i can learn from my hiao hiao senior Jian and not the otehr stern senior...
my aunt decided to visit me yesterday..sigh...so i was having a terribly bad mood and i felt dizzy before i went on stage....so i apply lotsa minyak angin on the temple of my head... the first time i'm doing it....felt like my grandma...
i did some stupid mistake on stage...i was wearing my tarcksuit which i do not like very much....and for fear of stepping on it i zipped it up...at the leg there...i think i zip too much because when i wet down the pant's leg kinda come up and stuck there, showing a little of my leg....so in order to make my pants go back down i tried to push it and in doing so making the next pose an almost disaster!and the thing is the pants is still up my leg!!!!!!!!
but the pants went down gradually lar...thankful!!!
the backdrop of the Kung Fu night was done by my dear L....muahaha..he is so hot!!!!his body is so sexy!!!!!!
my watery eye X crush finally noe my anme....but i think by this time he has already forgotten....sigh
now i shall concentrate on my Tai Ji Kung Fu Fan...hopefully i can learn from my hiao hiao senior Jian and not the otehr stern senior...
my aunt decided to visit me yesterday..sigh...so i was having a terribly bad mood and i felt dizzy before i went on stage....so i apply lotsa minyak angin on the temple of my head... the first time i'm doing it....felt like my grandma...
i did some stupid mistake on stage...i was wearing my tarcksuit which i do not like very much....and for fear of stepping on it i zipped it up...at the leg there...i think i zip too much because when i wet down the pant's leg kinda come up and stuck there, showing a little of my leg....so in order to make my pants go back down i tried to push it and in doing so making the next pose an almost disaster!and the thing is the pants is still up my leg!!!!!!!!
but the pants went down gradually lar...thankful!!!
the backdrop of the Kung Fu night was done by my dear L....muahaha..he is so hot!!!!his body is so sexy!!!!!!
my watery eye X crush finally noe my anme....but i think by this time he has already forgotten....sigh
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
ha....the date for my "performance is so near i can taste it...19 of january..
anyway...i am so antisocial....i tried to mingle but i'm just not good enuf
neeway, borrowed this book called PHANTOM ENCOUNTERS and it seems that if u wished for something really really hard, the person u wishes to see might actually appear before u....and u can actually have a "pet"of some sort from the unliving if u concentrate very very hard...and ofcos u need high level of mental and self discipline.....
so if any of u guys saw me somewhere i'm not suppose to be, try to touch me..mayb i am really just apparition and nothing more..hehehe
anyway...i am so antisocial....i tried to mingle but i'm just not good enuf
neeway, borrowed this book called PHANTOM ENCOUNTERS and it seems that if u wished for something really really hard, the person u wishes to see might actually appear before u....and u can actually have a "pet"of some sort from the unliving if u concentrate very very hard...and ofcos u need high level of mental and self discipline.....
so if any of u guys saw me somewhere i'm not suppose to be, try to touch me..mayb i am really just apparition and nothing more..hehehe
Friday, January 4, 2008
yest, when i was half dozing off....i suddenly thought about how my He used to speak....and it suddenly hit me hard, like a torpedo fired at 200km/h.....that i would never had that chance again....
all i had was a memory of Him...there will never be any present from him ever...and that he is really GONE
no matter how hard i kept telling myself everything is ok...and THAT never happens...but the fact was it did happen and my life had changed no matter how much i detest it and no matter how i fear the fact...
it remains a REALITY that i cannot escape from....a reality i had to accept...
i just dunno when
all i had was a memory of Him...there will never be any present from him ever...and that he is really GONE
no matter how hard i kept telling myself everything is ok...and THAT never happens...but the fact was it did happen and my life had changed no matter how much i detest it and no matter how i fear the fact...
it remains a REALITY that i cannot escape from....a reality i had to accept...
i just dunno when
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
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