Daughter of Water

to the man i love

ur hand is the first hand i ever hold,
i dun remember it, but the memory was engraved.
in the passage of time, the road so sacred,
we can only walk it once,
and never pass it again.

the memory we shared,
countless and precious as it is,
i thought we will still be collecting,
and adding it to our future,
never once did i thought it will stop,
so sudden, so sudden.

i never thought much,
about the love u gave,
so ever ready, so everlasting,
ur presence has always been there,
protecting me in the shadow.

you had always been my pillar,
i count on u for everything,
i knew u will always support me,
with ur strength, ur love
u always go all out for me,
and all u ask was a smile,
and to know i will try my best.

when i'm all lost, drowned in trouble,
i just need to call for u,
and u will be there to save me.
u had always been a hero,
my hero that save my world,
again and again,
but i never knew u were one,
till the day my world collapse,
and u were not there for me, anymore.

we bicker and we quarrel,
many times, many times,
i blamed u for so much,
and u forgave me so much,
it must be hurtful,
very, very,
sorry is all i can say,
and hope the winds will carry my words to u.

never did i thought it were so hard,
i thought it will be over,
and my world wont change a bit,
ur presence had never been loud,
like the sound of crickets, birds and frogs,
taken for granted, never been bothered,
but once it stop,
u'll be overwhelmed by a sudden stillness,
so lonely, so quiet, so lifeless
over the horizon, nothing more but emptiness.

now i stare into the darkness of the night,
and listen to the quiet sound of the wind,
wish it was all a horrible dream,
and wake up smiling but with cloud upon me.

i thought i am over u,
i thought i am okay without u,
i thought i am not dependent on u,
i thought i had it with u,
but no, how wrong i was,
i had always loved u, always, always,
the love might be blurred with my pride,
and covered with sand with every tide,
but it was always there, solid and real.

i knew u were important,
much so when i needed u,
when i lost u that day,
that fated day when u walk away,
i knew it was not goodbye,
cos i will see u again,
someday, somewhere.

and i will pass to u my memory of u,
and hope u can give me urs too...