today i did not even touch the books...
went to CBM(love the initial...CBM) took my 1119 cert...frens, u have to take urself, the clerk dun allowed me to take for u guys....gomen ya...

phoebe is back to BM......welcome back
*hugzzz
*kisses

OMIGAWD

it's THURDSDAY olredi and i havent freakin read for real!!!!!!sheesh!!!this is so bad i really gotta start reading and revising for real...no more fooling around. i can't afford to get my heart crushed agagin.......
somebody, quick slap me awake!
so hopefully, no post till exam is over.....no more post geddit DoLL! no more!!!

p/s: Phoebe, get well soon!

i have a new addiction recently...that is facebook!gosh i am still in the process of figuring out wat is it all about and it got me on my toes....seriously...so there goes my study plans......i am just so dead....
woke up at almost 2p.m......i felt so guilty!today was supposed to be my study day....and i woke up outrageously in the afternoon!!!!!!!!!!!!!damn the ginseng tea i took yesteday. it is all my own fault. drank tea at night. sigh...
i must not go face-booking anymore...............!!!!!!!!!!!

i've been going to bed really late and waking up equally late.....at noon....and haven't start studying at all....i am so gonna flunk and its all because of my lack of motivation. today mark the one week that i have been home...also mark the one week i did nothing but movie straming, blogging, frenstering, neopetting and blogreading....sigh..my favourite bloggers seems to have change their blogging scedule to like once a million years...i'm bored.*yawn

yesterday night, uh hum..i mean morning...i decided to change my sleeping habit once and for all...i set my phone alarm to wake me up at 10.30a.m, and watch my animes till about 2.30a.m...that way, i reasoned i'll be so so so tired for the entire day and as a result will go to bed early...heheh..am i brilliant or wat???*smug*

Lovely Complex has ended...goodbye Otani-kun, Koizumi-chan.....
Claymore has also ended...sayonara Clare, Teresa...
my life is empty deee.......
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i did something marvellous yesterday. i use HAIR shampoo to wash my body. really nyanyuk dee lah......age is really catching up.
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washed my bedsheet, pillow-case and blanket....popi popi wont rain lar...but nowadays the weather very hard to predict lor....furthermore now is the 9 jade emperor festival, and it seems it always rain around this time of the year....

to the man i love

ur hand is the first hand i ever hold,
i dun remember it, but the memory was engraved.
in the passage of time, the road so sacred,
we can only walk it once,
and never pass it again.

the memory we shared,
countless and precious as it is,
i thought we will still be collecting,
and adding it to our future,
never once did i thought it will stop,
so sudden, so sudden.

i never thought much,
about the love u gave,
so ever ready, so everlasting,
ur presence has always been there,
protecting me in the shadow.

you had always been my pillar,
i count on u for everything,
i knew u will always support me,
with ur strength, ur love
u always go all out for me,
and all u ask was a smile,
and to know i will try my best.

when i'm all lost, drowned in trouble,
i just need to call for u,
and u will be there to save me.
u had always been a hero,
my hero that save my world,
again and again,
but i never knew u were one,
till the day my world collapse,
and u were not there for me, anymore.

we bicker and we quarrel,
many times, many times,
i blamed u for so much,
and u forgave me so much,
it must be hurtful,
very, very,
sorry is all i can say,
and hope the winds will carry my words to u.

never did i thought it were so hard,
i thought it will be over,
and my world wont change a bit,
ur presence had never been loud,
like the sound of crickets, birds and frogs,
taken for granted, never been bothered,
but once it stop,
u'll be overwhelmed by a sudden stillness,
so lonely, so quiet, so lifeless
over the horizon, nothing more but emptiness.

now i stare into the darkness of the night,
and listen to the quiet sound of the wind,
wish it was all a horrible dream,
and wake up smiling but with cloud upon me.

i thought i am over u,
i thought i am okay without u,
i thought i am not dependent on u,
i thought i had it with u,
but no, how wrong i was,
i had always loved u, always, always,
the love might be blurred with my pride,
and covered with sand with every tide,
but it was always there, solid and real.

i knew u were important,
much so when i needed u,
when i lost u that day,
that fated day when u walk away,
i knew it was not goodbye,
cos i will see u again,
someday, somewhere.

and i will pass to u my memory of u,
and hope u can give me urs too...

me and movies

movies, well yeah i do love them...especially comedies.......i grew up watching Hong Kong movies a lot.I remember the first time i laid my eyes on my Stephen Chow, i was just a silly five or six year old but i like him....to the extent of repeatedly watching his movie...yah just one movie at that time tat i'd known off....its Tricky Master or something like tat(cheng gu chuin ka)...!!!and my next idol is Andy Lau.....i always had preferred him over Leon Lai and Aaron Kwok....dunno why also....

maybe because of my "puppy love" for Stephen Chow's slapstick comedy, i grew up loving mostly comedies...

horror and sci-fi?i admit, i used to love them as well, and actually thought a lot about their storyline and content, and i'll be going yaya, uhm uhm...that's right at watever theories they are proposing.....Jaws is the first movie that had a lasting impression on me...i remembered scaring out my little guts for the few monhs after watching it. i dare not venture near the bathroom alone in case the shark jump out of it and eat me. i will cautiosly stare at the tub, when i'm doing my business, when i'm showering and even when i'm wearing my clothes...most of the time i'll just dash out of the bathroom as soon as i can grabbing my clothes out with me without wearing them.....i was really scared out of my life....!but slowly, a few more of my brain cells stat to funcion and logic tells me that a 10 metre long shark can't possible emerge from my concrete tub....and the shark will prob get stuck at my tiny tub!

the second horror movie that i watch, well i think its a japanese one, with stories revolving around bathroom....i hate scary ghost stories with bathroom/toilet scene....it feels like those will almost certainly came true coz bathroom/toilet are creepy places.......

as i grow up, i can't stand watching these anymore, not because i'm scared of them, no. and they don't haunt me like they used to too. i just find them illogical, and their story doesn't make sense. especially stories with climate change, freezing fire and stuff like tat.how can u freeze fire in the first place?fire is energy. its gas. i noe gas can be frozen, but freezing fire?and more outrageosly retaining the "shape" of the fire???????nonsense!!

and time-travelling.......if they tell it in a way that can make sense, ok lor i accept. but to me, the past is EVERYTHING that had HAPPENED before. so if time-travelling is real, then if u travel from the future to the past, it is suppose to happen that way. and the future that u wanna change is actually ur future and they never changed because it shud happen that way. coz nothing can change the past. the past that u tot u changed is actually the present that is happening.

chick-flicks....they are dumb to the core...just for laughs but watch too often and u'll suffer brain-jam

romance..no they are never overrated!it teaches ppl how to dream, how to hope and how to feel in this cruel world. all the stories about finding ur true one, ur other half, lines like we are meant for each other, we complete each other and etc...so sweet desu neh??well, i dunno about u guys, but i held strong onto my believe that i can live happily ever after, growing old together and holding hands as we walk towards the golden sunset together,with my other half(malu) well they are my secret(now not so secret anymore)dreams..............especially digs korean movies.....they always have one and only one theme.....ONE LOVE ONE LIFE

woke up as usual at around noon....gosh, when u have nothing to do, u have no reason to wake up! so wonder around, heard my mom coming back and prepared myself for another round of nagging!!!!what can i do?if u have a mom whose favourite past time is to find fault and nag at everything u did, either u're doing it or u had done it eons ago or stuff u haven't done......what can u do??just bare with her lor....

although i've been "doing nothing", my heart actually are loaded with worries.......worries about my finals that is in 2 weeks time......i dun usually worry about finals.....maybe because my test result is pretty good in the past, that kind of gave me the confidence....but this time its different! my test, its horrible....all i could do is stare blankly at the questions and scratch my head...i scratch my head a lot this semester.....almost on the verge of becoming a crazy woman ad...

but still, i have no mood watsover to start studying...i've mark after raya as my studying week so i'm sticking to it....y my will only works on things that is not important?i should start as early as possible......but starting early also means that i will get bored early and forgets everything in a snap...i need a lock!a LOCK to keep everything that i read inside!!!

And a will to read. i dun have a will to read. i have a will for many things but just not the will to read.i can also remember lots of things....my memory capacity is endless........i always shock ppl with the things that my brain can remember.....but WHY?oh WHY?i just can't remember any facts that i read!
its a curse, a jinx