tis the season to be jolly la la la la la~la la la l
its been 6 months and sometimes i tend to forget the fact......

i miss you a lot
have a merry time

i have successfully injured my leg!now i can totally qualified to be a member of the "kai pang" or the legendary beggars society in the wu xia pien!

ahem...i am learning TAI JI QUAN right now....currently working on the 24 Chen Fa,Yang style....shocking rite...the slowpoke me actually taking up tai ji...
i went reluctantly.....only muscle ache and the feeling of giving up accompanied me throughout the trainin.....and i tot it will just be like that....
till our seniors trick us and brought us to sunshine w/o informing us....so half of us went in our usual smelly tracksuit.................imagine.....no wonder the senior remind us to take our bath...suspicious...!!
den later trick us again.....actually they prepared a picnic for us.!
and dunno y we start to pair ppl up....some randomly some not so....and i was paired with this senior tat i kutuk banyak.....becos he was so slow all the time...and i have o idea y he pick me...mayb i too low profile d......
altho it was just a silly game...but i kinda realise i start to pay more attention to him......mayb tat is y i am pretty crushed when he is friendlier to my fren...sigh.....

i'm back to penang,back to my old sweet penang......been travelling a bit for the past week......it was a spontaneous spree cos i really din plan ahead...i just go with the flow....and it turned out great.....went to shop with Phoebe in Pavillion, saw the I wanna be a model's judge Christopher....he look exactly like on-screen.......mayb i was expecting hom to look worse without all the lighting and make up...haha

went to Lagoon too.....i've at least conquer my fear.......but too bad the safari or animal zoo is closed by the time we wanna went in.....i kinda wanna see the animals......
before we went to Lagoon, we embark on a few hours jorney to Genting.....we reach at 7p.m.....by the time we get ready, all the shops were closed d....so we just walke around and went into Casino(i dunno Y so many wanna go In), archade center den back to the hostel.....it was so chilly and it was raining.....the thickness of the fog....the chilly night air......it was the perfect setting for a depressed mood....but i kinda like it.....and no i'm not depressed...haven't checked out my result yet....i bet it sucks....

oh and a must mention.....the buffet steamboat in sunway......the chicken wing is delicious....i know i can gorge many of them if its not for its rarity......it were all snatched up as it was served....so its very hard to get those precious wings.....

den i went south t malaca...i took the LRT bravely alone to Masjid Jamek....i know lah its no biggie....but this is my first time aone taking LRT leh....and when i reached Masjid Jamek station i have no idea where is Pude at all.....plus i haven't bought my ticket.....so i was standing there for a few minutes just staring into the crowds and trying to se which directions there were going...i asked around and the did show me the direction...but what i couldn't believe was how far the station was from Pudu......i bet its around 10 to 15 minutes of walk......

everything looked unfamiliar and scary....because i was thinking about snatch theft and pickpockets.....bt at last i reached...and bought the wrong ticket....that wrong ticket cst me an extra half an hour of bus ride.....but anyhoo reached malaca at about 9.20p.m.....

luckily my sweet fren is there......i have a lot to thanked her...she made my Malaca trip so memorable and fun.....we went straight to Jonker Street after i reached......it was awesome lah...so many ppl and so many stalls.....met up with her frens....not bad looking...muahahah....i was so paiseh....we walked around, scrutinizing every stalls there.....and we reached this stalls selling surprise wooden boxes.....and many plastic reptiles and arachnids......so i was opening the boxes and a scary looking arachnids jumped out....i had found the perfect gift!!!hahaha.....den the irl behind the stall asked me to try another box.....i felt strange as in why the handle is metal instead of wood like the rest..but my curiosity got the better of me so i opened it...and was shocked by electric!!!!!so so kebas leh my fingers after tat.......after tat i was kinda scared to toughed anything d....den my fren's fren...."RED SKY" came over and brought out this bottle of candy....it look just like a bottle of candy lah....but since i was just freshly shocked by electric...and he look suspicious i didn't wanna touch it......after much coaxing from him, my fren finally took the bottle from him...and as she was trying to open the cap....

she was shocked...!teruking lar......after the two traumatic experince, u'll think tat we had learned the lessons.......Red SKY den took a lighter from the stall ... it doesn't seems to contain any trickery cos the lighter did light up fire...and he seems to have no problem lighting it again and again...so i tot...mayb it was not a trick liao la......but it felt suspicious when this fella just kept wanting you to try.....

anyway, i did try lor.....and this time the current that jolt me was stronger....i screamed really loud and dropeed the freaking lighter onto the road......and i can see heads turning at our directions.....malu....and i was shocked and screamed twice in less than an hour....will definitely remember him...cis

after tat leh, my fren's fren...Ming said lets go yumcha....so we ma ok lr...he said wanna go Bar....den we aslo say ok lor....so he brought us to this Sunshine Bar......and my fren totally freaked out...hahaha...it was funny lar.....she was so freaked out she pulled me away after we saw the place...it was crowded with teenage girls trying to dance???they were more like jumping chicken who's tossed into boiling water lor....so cacated the way the "dance"...if u can call tat a dance lar...even kindy children can dance better lor.....anyweee, the bar looked more like a club, but ming kept insisting its a Bar...cos well, its written Sunshine Bar.....but i swore it looked more like an open club!!!

i had a dream of JACKIE WU.....now i know i'm nuts
i've been painting my toilet and bathroom for two conscutive days...all by myself...yea...so proud of myself
going kl in 2 days time...
XoX

i'm really jealous with those who can just lay on their bed or anything for tat matter and fell asleep in like 10 minutes......how could they??!!!and some pitiful ppl like(moi) who tossed and toil on their bed and no matter how comfy my bed is it just don't have the sleep factor on it...sigh.....

i have no homework...no work....all i ned to do is find internship which i did not find any because i dunno where to...so i shud be able to sleep soundly rite???sigh...
my complexion really gone from bad to worse...

i am so hideous so all i can do is hide n my house because i dunwanna scare anyone....huhuhu

anyweeee...

bought my bus ticket d so will be going off to kl on 28th at 0730......den hopefully everything will be fine,meeting tat boney creature phoebe....den we're off to genting.....muahahaha

den come down, meeting tat "beautiful orchard" charmaine......den off to malaca, meeting my fren "shi wen, wen rou"...hahahaha.....name shirou....
gosh i'm so crazy...and i never took the bus alone before and i dare to go so many places.....ki siao totally....

and i'm a level 32 wizard!!!find me in aquila maplesea...muahaha...so childish me

i had a dream a few nights ago.....a dream that i had not had for a very long time.....in my dream, i saw HIM again....i dunno Y i can dream of him because for the longest time i haven't heard any news from him or about him...the last "communication" if u can count giving a comment on my birthday communication was...weeks ago...

but there he was in my dream. and the venue of our meeting was my old dear Convent st. Marguerite.....i have no idea y we plan to meet there. but one thing is obvious in my dream, tat he just came back and we plan to meet up. so we met. in dream.

he was friendly and warm to me.....and i treated him like a real good old friend too....no awkward moments at all.....its weird cos there is no awkwardness in the way we communicate, the way we played with each other, it felts like its meant to be....it felt so right!REALLY
I've never felt "right" in my past encounters with other guys....like i did with him. its like we're two pieces of jigsaw pieces that fits perfectly....and i am comfortable!

so we walk a bit,play and joke like time stops since the last time we saw each other...(but i was terribly nervous and shy at that time, so i was quiet). then he saw some of his pals from the states whom actually follwed him back here...haha...so i left him alone...but later i saw him again and we started to talk again....

the dream has no intimacy or watsoever, no content of a overs dream but what i'm trying to say is...being with his seems like the best and the right thing to do....

sigh...
if only he felt this way

yeahoo....
exam is finally over!!!!
birthday also over liao...so now legally adult...can't depends on others much d...must grow UP!!
anyhooo...
thanks to all my dearies for wishing me......

but

but

i am so surprised tat HE of all ppl...also wish ler....muahahahahaha
definitely one of the best pressie ever!!!!!!
and ur pressie too bubbles....ths star linked heart earings...love it!!!

5 papers down and one more to go....wat a horrible way to spend a week!!!it was so horrible that i had headache since friday and wats worse i couldn't slept at night when i really wanted to sleep.....sheesh...i hate exams.....!!!

the reason i'm back here...ofcos i miss my laptop a lot muahaha...the nly entertainment i have was my roommie in the room and she well, this is the first time she had been so serious in studying for exam, so i shud not kacao her so much lah....so i am back lor

i think there is something wrong with the food in the cafetaria near my hostel..i mean the rice smells cheap and look less than appealing.and seriously the rice took a long time to digest, especially at night....i think that is one of the cause of my tummy ache this past two days....
i am really so proud of myself..studying for 2 papers in a day....heavy subject summo leh..one is my minor paper, basics in psychology and another my elective paper, techniques in biotechnology....pray hard that i did not do so badly in both...what's embarrasing was i got the most wrong for the biological part for the psycho paper....and i am a bio student leh...but the questions ask about neurones(tat one i noe a bit la), but when it reach stuff about brains and systems i totally blank lor....cos i din really read tat part haha....but at least one of the essay questions came out, as i suspected!!!!

anyway, altho the warning on the book says not to diagnose urself with every symptoms u read on the book, but i begun to understand myself more as i took up psychology. tat is one of the main reason i took up this minor anyway, to learn why i think and behave in certain way and how i can help myself.....

i noe its not a proud thing to say and many might just take it as a joke, but i do have a rather unpleasing childhood. the early realationship that i kenot build with my parents are affecting me now, in the way i socialise. i had a hard time in trusting, opening up and getting intimate with ppl....what shud i do?i really dunwanna be this way...

today i did not even touch the books...
went to CBM(love the initial...CBM) took my 1119 cert...frens, u have to take urself, the clerk dun allowed me to take for u guys....gomen ya...

phoebe is back to BM......welcome back
*hugzzz
*kisses

OMIGAWD

it's THURDSDAY olredi and i havent freakin read for real!!!!!!sheesh!!!this is so bad i really gotta start reading and revising for real...no more fooling around. i can't afford to get my heart crushed agagin.......
somebody, quick slap me awake!
so hopefully, no post till exam is over.....no more post geddit DoLL! no more!!!

p/s: Phoebe, get well soon!

i have a new addiction recently...that is facebook!gosh i am still in the process of figuring out wat is it all about and it got me on my toes....seriously...so there goes my study plans......i am just so dead....
woke up at almost 2p.m......i felt so guilty!today was supposed to be my study day....and i woke up outrageously in the afternoon!!!!!!!!!!!!!damn the ginseng tea i took yesteday. it is all my own fault. drank tea at night. sigh...
i must not go face-booking anymore...............!!!!!!!!!!!

i've been going to bed really late and waking up equally late.....at noon....and haven't start studying at all....i am so gonna flunk and its all because of my lack of motivation. today mark the one week that i have been home...also mark the one week i did nothing but movie straming, blogging, frenstering, neopetting and blogreading....sigh..my favourite bloggers seems to have change their blogging scedule to like once a million years...i'm bored.*yawn

yesterday night, uh hum..i mean morning...i decided to change my sleeping habit once and for all...i set my phone alarm to wake me up at 10.30a.m, and watch my animes till about 2.30a.m...that way, i reasoned i'll be so so so tired for the entire day and as a result will go to bed early...heheh..am i brilliant or wat???*smug*

Lovely Complex has ended...goodbye Otani-kun, Koizumi-chan.....
Claymore has also ended...sayonara Clare, Teresa...
my life is empty deee.......
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i did something marvellous yesterday. i use HAIR shampoo to wash my body. really nyanyuk dee lah......age is really catching up.
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washed my bedsheet, pillow-case and blanket....popi popi wont rain lar...but nowadays the weather very hard to predict lor....furthermore now is the 9 jade emperor festival, and it seems it always rain around this time of the year....

to the man i love

ur hand is the first hand i ever hold,
i dun remember it, but the memory was engraved.
in the passage of time, the road so sacred,
we can only walk it once,
and never pass it again.

the memory we shared,
countless and precious as it is,
i thought we will still be collecting,
and adding it to our future,
never once did i thought it will stop,
so sudden, so sudden.

i never thought much,
about the love u gave,
so ever ready, so everlasting,
ur presence has always been there,
protecting me in the shadow.

you had always been my pillar,
i count on u for everything,
i knew u will always support me,
with ur strength, ur love
u always go all out for me,
and all u ask was a smile,
and to know i will try my best.

when i'm all lost, drowned in trouble,
i just need to call for u,
and u will be there to save me.
u had always been a hero,
my hero that save my world,
again and again,
but i never knew u were one,
till the day my world collapse,
and u were not there for me, anymore.

we bicker and we quarrel,
many times, many times,
i blamed u for so much,
and u forgave me so much,
it must be hurtful,
very, very,
sorry is all i can say,
and hope the winds will carry my words to u.

never did i thought it were so hard,
i thought it will be over,
and my world wont change a bit,
ur presence had never been loud,
like the sound of crickets, birds and frogs,
taken for granted, never been bothered,
but once it stop,
u'll be overwhelmed by a sudden stillness,
so lonely, so quiet, so lifeless
over the horizon, nothing more but emptiness.

now i stare into the darkness of the night,
and listen to the quiet sound of the wind,
wish it was all a horrible dream,
and wake up smiling but with cloud upon me.

i thought i am over u,
i thought i am okay without u,
i thought i am not dependent on u,
i thought i had it with u,
but no, how wrong i was,
i had always loved u, always, always,
the love might be blurred with my pride,
and covered with sand with every tide,
but it was always there, solid and real.

i knew u were important,
much so when i needed u,
when i lost u that day,
that fated day when u walk away,
i knew it was not goodbye,
cos i will see u again,
someday, somewhere.

and i will pass to u my memory of u,
and hope u can give me urs too...

me and movies

movies, well yeah i do love them...especially comedies.......i grew up watching Hong Kong movies a lot.I remember the first time i laid my eyes on my Stephen Chow, i was just a silly five or six year old but i like him....to the extent of repeatedly watching his movie...yah just one movie at that time tat i'd known off....its Tricky Master or something like tat(cheng gu chuin ka)...!!!and my next idol is Andy Lau.....i always had preferred him over Leon Lai and Aaron Kwok....dunno why also....

maybe because of my "puppy love" for Stephen Chow's slapstick comedy, i grew up loving mostly comedies...

horror and sci-fi?i admit, i used to love them as well, and actually thought a lot about their storyline and content, and i'll be going yaya, uhm uhm...that's right at watever theories they are proposing.....Jaws is the first movie that had a lasting impression on me...i remembered scaring out my little guts for the few monhs after watching it. i dare not venture near the bathroom alone in case the shark jump out of it and eat me. i will cautiosly stare at the tub, when i'm doing my business, when i'm showering and even when i'm wearing my clothes...most of the time i'll just dash out of the bathroom as soon as i can grabbing my clothes out with me without wearing them.....i was really scared out of my life....!but slowly, a few more of my brain cells stat to funcion and logic tells me that a 10 metre long shark can't possible emerge from my concrete tub....and the shark will prob get stuck at my tiny tub!

the second horror movie that i watch, well i think its a japanese one, with stories revolving around bathroom....i hate scary ghost stories with bathroom/toilet scene....it feels like those will almost certainly came true coz bathroom/toilet are creepy places.......

as i grow up, i can't stand watching these anymore, not because i'm scared of them, no. and they don't haunt me like they used to too. i just find them illogical, and their story doesn't make sense. especially stories with climate change, freezing fire and stuff like tat.how can u freeze fire in the first place?fire is energy. its gas. i noe gas can be frozen, but freezing fire?and more outrageosly retaining the "shape" of the fire???????nonsense!!

and time-travelling.......if they tell it in a way that can make sense, ok lor i accept. but to me, the past is EVERYTHING that had HAPPENED before. so if time-travelling is real, then if u travel from the future to the past, it is suppose to happen that way. and the future that u wanna change is actually ur future and they never changed because it shud happen that way. coz nothing can change the past. the past that u tot u changed is actually the present that is happening.

chick-flicks....they are dumb to the core...just for laughs but watch too often and u'll suffer brain-jam

romance..no they are never overrated!it teaches ppl how to dream, how to hope and how to feel in this cruel world. all the stories about finding ur true one, ur other half, lines like we are meant for each other, we complete each other and etc...so sweet desu neh??well, i dunno about u guys, but i held strong onto my believe that i can live happily ever after, growing old together and holding hands as we walk towards the golden sunset together,with my other half(malu) well they are my secret(now not so secret anymore)dreams..............especially digs korean movies.....they always have one and only one theme.....ONE LOVE ONE LIFE

woke up as usual at around noon....gosh, when u have nothing to do, u have no reason to wake up! so wonder around, heard my mom coming back and prepared myself for another round of nagging!!!!what can i do?if u have a mom whose favourite past time is to find fault and nag at everything u did, either u're doing it or u had done it eons ago or stuff u haven't done......what can u do??just bare with her lor....

although i've been "doing nothing", my heart actually are loaded with worries.......worries about my finals that is in 2 weeks time......i dun usually worry about finals.....maybe because my test result is pretty good in the past, that kind of gave me the confidence....but this time its different! my test, its horrible....all i could do is stare blankly at the questions and scratch my head...i scratch my head a lot this semester.....almost on the verge of becoming a crazy woman ad...

but still, i have no mood watsover to start studying...i've mark after raya as my studying week so i'm sticking to it....y my will only works on things that is not important?i should start as early as possible......but starting early also means that i will get bored early and forgets everything in a snap...i need a lock!a LOCK to keep everything that i read inside!!!

And a will to read. i dun have a will to read. i have a will for many things but just not the will to read.i can also remember lots of things....my memory capacity is endless........i always shock ppl with the things that my brain can remember.....but WHY?oh WHY?i just can't remember any facts that i read!
its a curse, a jinx