Lunar New Year

this year i did not plan to meet up with anybody and just hole up in my house and munch on cookies while growing fat! very productive i must say!

and tis proves fate always leads me to the opposite way...

i met up with Bee, Grandma and tycheo....their frens, our frens...mostly i known them since a few years back but we dont talk due to my unfrenliness....ehehe

saw kimmy after sooo looong!!!!!!!!!!!!!i remember we used to lean back on back at the porch while waiting for our parents and talked.....my lil sister cos both our name has KIm....haha
den yvonne, phoebe, we're in the same town but rarely meet :(

met with xbff wei..hahaha she's getting too hot to handle these days

ooh and the forever MIA Marie....such pleasure :P

i had my first steamboat on 2nd Feb AFTERNOON...and my wet food streak continues well into 4th.....by 4th i totally cant take it anymore and thanks to my awesome saviors, Charm and Rach, i had the bestest most awesome pizza in straits quay!!!!!!!!!i dun remember the name of the restaurant but the pizza was AWESOME!!!

and i usually dont take pizza....totally hate and despise pizza hut! i tink its more accurate to say tat i hate breaded pizza!!i love all thin crust!!!nom nom nom.......:D

i totally miss Shandy.....miss talking to her so much.havent talked to her since form 6? so glad that she is still the same girl i had a crush on in Year One LOL....everyone that's close to me iz in kl....and i'm stranded here in bm....

i really miss all my old pals....they r just no the same as the new ones...cos we had shared so many memories together...we practically grew up together.....and that is a bond that i hope will maintain till the day i dai

as i'm typing this entry i can see the formation of a nother pot of steamboat!urrgghhhh!i cant take it no more!!!

i even cooked maggi yesterday while waiting for lara! that is how much i wanna avoid steamboat. it nice to eat them once in awhile and that's it

not everyday!!!

so after seeing all my darlings grown up so well *sniff* i'm getting sentimental here....i realise i'm still the same and unchanged....i guess its time to really grow up....

gonna meet with new darlings later :P

have an awesome new year peeps

HIM again

yup....as the title of this post suggested...its him again....

today marks his 1 month and 11 days away from me......on 11 Jan 2011......the 1 month and 11 days is he say wan hor...not me.....so he actually counted.....altho i highly doubt its my business lah......like he's not counting the days he's away from me also....hahaha

today, we argued about the number 1, 3 and 13 for like an hour....this is the extent of our ridicuous conversation.....he's not the type that gave in...(so am i) so we just keep arguing about stupid stuff non-stop until one of us gets too tired to talk....

so yeah the reason for this post is to commemorate us arguing over the most ridiclous topic regarding numbers on 11/01/11, 1 month and 11 days away from each other :D

the great graph

yep.....came up with a graph after retiring from any forms of math other than simple addition, substraction, multiplication and dividing of no more than 2 integers....*ehem*

the graph above might seem like a simple doodle that involves no calculation or complicated formula, but you are very wrong if you think that way.

this graph is derived based on a very complicated formula with no definite answers!!up till now i am sure nobody can come up with an absolute answer for this...i shall not even dream of trying to answer this question even if i am reincarnated 10 times with all my memories intact!!

this graph is a LEAN and simple representation of my emotional state when i'm with him. yep.....how boring i must be keep harping about one fella over and over and over again...i cant help it i just need to do this cos he's too wonderful a fren ad..ahahahha

as you can clearly observe from the graph, there is no plateau, it is always very high...or very low....you gain and den u loses big!

liking him, i am never bored with feelings.....cos its either i'm up or down...and these ups or down never lasted too long for me to get bored with it :D

he got me smiling and skipping on one day, and send me crying home the next. well, i am really a slave for men.......

i hope, and seriously hoping against hope that this will conclude my journey with him.

i hope i shall have no more post concerning him......

now its time to gather assets!!

The After

i dunno what is it with you

are u trying to kill me by confusing me to death?

u're so cold to me the last week u r here.....u dunno how much i suffered to see u smile at others while acting nonchalantly at me

den suddenly u apologize

tat really makes me feel like fool.

den u are so warm tat i can feel it even if i'm expelled to saturn!

den u're cold.

and then, i died

Song for a fool → Park Sang Woo

English Translation

I must be like this because I’m a fool
It seems alright even when I’m hurt
Even when I’m teased about my pitiful love
Because I’m a fool beyond help

I was good to her because I wanted to be
I was happy with just that
If she smiles just once
I’m happy with that smile

Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return

A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her

Because she was the one I chose
Even the pain made me happy
If she looks back at me just once
I’m happy with that

Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return

A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her

Until someone else to watch over her in my place arrives
I’ll stay by her side for the time being
Because this is a love where I’m just happy to gaze at her
I don’t need anything in return

So that she can lean on me and rest any time
I’ll always appear the same
Even if she leaves me without saying goodbye
I’ll let her go saying thanks

Because I’m a fool

The Move

well, well

i have been contemplating what should i do, and i cant believe you race me to it

you did something i wanted but had no courage to do

now i lose

i hope i can hate u

my best mistake

what we did has cross the line

i dunno what are we anymore

are we just frens?cos we cant be anything else

you'll be leaving, and i dunwanna give u my heart

i need my heart here with me, so i can live, so i can breathe

what we did i do not regret

it was nothing too much, but not too little

i'm still confused, i dont think you do

you make me feel great

yet i know its a mistake

counting the days you'll be gone

its too soon, and i dunno what i'll do

should i stop, and protect myself

or should i let go and hurt myself in the end?

please tell me what to do'

you know i need you

you know it very well

we're just having fun

a fun that will end with a broken heart

and the broken heart will be mine

will you just be another scar?

very emo recently....dunno y...maybe hormonal imbalance....

my boss and colleugue keep saying my company is a really great place to work in but i just dun see it..maybe it wasn't my passion to work in this industry...maybe i feel my life shud not be lived so boringly...i want an exciting life...

thus i decided...i wanna dwell in photography!!!i took great photos (self proclaimed) ehem....

these were not my best shot...but boleh lah

meromictic lake...without the water...hahaha

blue blue sky.....this is where the lake water mixes with salt water

random pic